mottiemushroom
Give it some welly!!!
I have spent most of my life trying to find acceptance: acceptance with my parents because they adopted me but always let me know i wasn't the daughter they had dreamed of; acceptance at being a girl who is a tomboy more than a lady; acceptance at being a single parent; the list goes on & on. Eventually a few years ago i learned that the ONLY acceptance i actually needed was acceptance from myself about myself.
But NEVER have i ever felt the need to be accepted because of my size. Strange maybe considering my parents called me so many names & put me on so many diets as a kid. But of all the things they criticised me for, being fat was the one that just seemed plain stupid to me. Some criticisms (justified or not) i took on board because they were connected to my personality & i felt i should make the effort to be the best person i could be. But being big has NOTHING to do with my personality - i am the same person big or skinny. If others can't take the time to judge me AFTER getting to know me, then it's simple ... i can't be bothered to get to know them either !!!
The nicest compliment i ever had was from a boyfriend years ago. He was a BBW fan, & told me quite simply that the reason i had to have such a big body was because i carry so many people around in my heart, & that a skinny body wouldn't have room for such a large, loving, heart.
