I'm in love, I mean crazy in love, I've met someone that I should have met a long time ago, everything about her is completely amazing. (I will not nor ever put a name or face to this thread out of deep personal respect.) we see so much in common with each other, have both been through some pretty rough knocks so to speak we have been talking for a while and every time we do it gets better and better. We both have stated where we stand and what we want in life and all I see is beauty and synchronicity , I would wait a year just to date her, or even just to meet her. I would feel a really big empty spot inside me if I didn't take this chance, or be impatient and move on. On a couple of occasions we have made plans to meet and finally put a living breathing face to the words we exchange, but she keeps running away, hides and doubts herself out of panic due to the past. I cry about this, not out of self need for the fact that it fell through, but for her, for the anxiety that is burdening her at this moment. I can empathize with this fear for I have been locked in by it in my own past. I have overcome, I have faced it and let it pass through me and only I remain. (Yes those are excerpts from the litany for fear, they have helped me overcome some of the greatest obstacles I have encountered in my life and they are true and divine words.) I want to show her another way, I want to give her the piece of my heart that she so much deserves and I deserve so much to give. What should I do? How should I do it? I know being kind honest and patient is the first steps but is there anything more? Do I have to take a bus out to her, hold a boombox over my head and play "In Your Eyes" by Peter Gabriel outside of her window like John Cusak did in "Say Anything"? please help me. Losing this without trying would kill me inside.
signed,
"Shock The Monkey"
signed,
"Shock The Monkey"
