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happiness as finally come
it has been two weeks and my ex has been gone and I am feeling the effects of him still. because he left me with no money no car(my car as a bad tranny) I cannot work and my rent is due and my electricity I have no clue on where the money is going to come from. I have applied for unemployment because my car was a necessary tool for my job and I dont have a car at the moment though I wish I had the balls to put on a website that I need money to fix my tranny which will cost 1500.00 but I am too honest to sponge off of others.
and I am thinking that I am a freak of nature because in the gay community they basically think very little of you and dont want to be your platonic friend without benefits. He made me feel like shit because in his eyes I have a small package and I said I am happy with what I was dealt with and I told him that at least I did not cheat on you with some strange man. I consider myself a man who has values and takes pride in himself and I could never ever date a man who is a man whore or a slut. I would be so embarassed if some guy came up to me and said my partner was good in bed.
Sorry if I am rambling but I see a dark dark hallway and no lights and my own light is going out and frankly it would be the best thing for me. Sometimes I wish I had died with my immortal beloved Carl years ago, he was the only man who loved me for me and did not care about my package and only about me.
thank you for listening guys...
love you all
and I am thinking that I am a freak of nature because in the gay community they basically think very little of you and dont want to be your platonic friend without benefits. He made me feel like shit because in his eyes I have a small package and I said I am happy with what I was dealt with and I told him that at least I did not cheat on you with some strange man. I consider myself a man who has values and takes pride in himself and I could never ever date a man who is a man whore or a slut. I would be so embarassed if some guy came up to me and said my partner was good in bed.
Sorry if I am rambling but I see a dark dark hallway and no lights and my own light is going out and frankly it would be the best thing for me. Sometimes I wish I had died with my immortal beloved Carl years ago, he was the only man who loved me for me and did not care about my package and only about me.
thank you for listening guys...
love you all
