Love.Metal
Dr. Bitchcraft
I have recently realized that something I thought wasn't a big deal...is a VERY big deal to me. I am thinking that maybe a little perspective might help calm my emotions down a bit...because this is ridiculous how much it is bothering me.
My bf, whom I have been with for 6 months, is great. We lived together at the beginning of our relationship, and I had a job and was going to school full time. I am now recently unemployed, due to bad economy and the shocking difficulty of finding a part-time job around here. It's ridiculous...I put school first, so now I'm living at home until I can find another job that can work around my school time. So my boyfriend moved into his own apartment this weekend...with another girl.
Brief history:
This girl, who is very nice, has been his friend for about 6 or 7 years. He admits that he "used to love her", and they totally had the hots for each other in high school. Now, that's fine, I don't care. He denies that they ever slept together, and I believe that. It's the past, so whatever. But the other day this girl, my boy and I were looking through some of her photo albums, and we came across this pic of the two of them like, hug-humping [aka, a very friendly hug], and he pipes up "Oh, that is totally when I fell in love with you(fill in chick's name)!! I've been in love with you since then!"
Now, I confronted him about that later, just casually, asking what he meant by "love", because he is against using taht word casually. He said it was just a slip of the tongue, and that he doesn't have feelings for her anymore.
Now he's living with her, and I'm totally jealous. I know that I could be living there too if I had a job, but I don't. They both work full time and don't go to college.
It just makes me jealous that they are at their own place, playing "house", decorating together, watching tv and just having fun together when I feel like that should be me, not some other girl. He uses a different tone of voice with her, and is just generally more patient and nice when he's interacting with her. I'm not sure exactly what I'm afraid is going to happen, I don't think they will sleep together; I'm just afraid that he will start to enjoy her company more than mine...that he is going to get along better with her, and play house with her, and laugh more with her.
I think this mostly ticks me off because I know that if I moved in with one of my guy friends, he's be so suspiscious all the time, wondering what we were up to and shit.
This post is long and rambling...I'm just not liking that all of his positive, happy emotions go to her, while he just seems indifferent to me now that they have moved in. He's more interested in playing house with her. He swears that he loves me, and I know he does...but I'm not so cool with sharing him with another girl.
Sorry this was so long, I'm really torn about it, because I'm normally so not a jealous person. I hate that I feel this way...I've told him of my fears, and he said that I have nothing to worry about. I'm not worried so much as jealous that they are living together and doing all the things I did with him when we lived together...but he seems happier in their new place, it's all he talks about. And now every time I want to go see him or hang out with him, he includes her too, so I have no alone time with him. This is such a pathetic post...
Thoughts? Opinions? Ways to get me to stop being a puss-bitch??
Maybe just an internet-slap, to tell me to "snap out of it!!"
<3
My bf, whom I have been with for 6 months, is great. We lived together at the beginning of our relationship, and I had a job and was going to school full time. I am now recently unemployed, due to bad economy and the shocking difficulty of finding a part-time job around here. It's ridiculous...I put school first, so now I'm living at home until I can find another job that can work around my school time. So my boyfriend moved into his own apartment this weekend...with another girl.
Brief history:
This girl, who is very nice, has been his friend for about 6 or 7 years. He admits that he "used to love her", and they totally had the hots for each other in high school. Now, that's fine, I don't care. He denies that they ever slept together, and I believe that. It's the past, so whatever. But the other day this girl, my boy and I were looking through some of her photo albums, and we came across this pic of the two of them like, hug-humping [aka, a very friendly hug], and he pipes up "Oh, that is totally when I fell in love with you(fill in chick's name)!! I've been in love with you since then!"
Now, I confronted him about that later, just casually, asking what he meant by "love", because he is against using taht word casually. He said it was just a slip of the tongue, and that he doesn't have feelings for her anymore.
Now he's living with her, and I'm totally jealous. I know that I could be living there too if I had a job, but I don't. They both work full time and don't go to college.
It just makes me jealous that they are at their own place, playing "house", decorating together, watching tv and just having fun together when I feel like that should be me, not some other girl. He uses a different tone of voice with her, and is just generally more patient and nice when he's interacting with her. I'm not sure exactly what I'm afraid is going to happen, I don't think they will sleep together; I'm just afraid that he will start to enjoy her company more than mine...that he is going to get along better with her, and play house with her, and laugh more with her.
I think this mostly ticks me off because I know that if I moved in with one of my guy friends, he's be so suspiscious all the time, wondering what we were up to and shit.
This post is long and rambling...I'm just not liking that all of his positive, happy emotions go to her, while he just seems indifferent to me now that they have moved in. He's more interested in playing house with her. He swears that he loves me, and I know he does...but I'm not so cool with sharing him with another girl.
Sorry this was so long, I'm really torn about it, because I'm normally so not a jealous person. I hate that I feel this way...I've told him of my fears, and he said that I have nothing to worry about. I'm not worried so much as jealous that they are living together and doing all the things I did with him when we lived together...but he seems happier in their new place, it's all he talks about. And now every time I want to go see him or hang out with him, he includes her too, so I have no alone time with him. This is such a pathetic post...
Thoughts? Opinions? Ways to get me to stop being a puss-bitch??
Maybe just an internet-slap, to tell me to "snap out of it!!"
<3
