there was a time, before Kent university and my joining here, where I was hopelessly naive about my FA status. I just want to share it with you guys, and you can offer your scorn, sympathy or comments where you wish.
this was when I was in 6th form college, the place between gcse shut-in and university full on and proud nerd. I would catagorise this point as a limbo in my life for many reasons. I was unsure of my identity as a geek, and a metal fan, and as a FA throughout this period, but during that time was a real Eye-opener, where I fell in love with lots of great stuff, like comic books, Anime, power metal, black metal, Big women and the beatles (who doesn't love the beatles, besides pete best).
It was also a time of hard knocks and scrapped knees. I want to draw attention to a particular incident. I was working at a local convenience store, at the time, stacking shelves, doing checkout, boring, normal stuff. but for me there was one person who made it both a slog and a bit of heart-ache.
I was working with a woman, she was about the same position as me, but old by about 2 years. this woman was, no bones about it, a BBW in every sense of the word, and it must of been pretty obvious that I fancied her. she twigged very early on, and as a result, she pretty much used me for all the hard jobs that required alot of manual labour. lifting extremely heavy boxes up the stairs, organizing shelves with very vague instructions, and generally making my life hell. when I tried to claim it unfair, all it would take was a fluttering of her eyes and a sway of her hips and I would do it all again.
What was even worse, she made me feel like I could get no other girl apart from her. saying:
"Listen, ed, I know what you like, and I can tell you, i'm the only one whose going to accept what you like!"
whilst I would now tell her to get stuffed, get on with the work and stop being so damn lazy, at that very naive stage of FAism, anyone who would accept you for who you are was a great break. the terrible negative spiral ended when I found my second girlfriend, and she basically lost it, moved to a different store, and never heard of again.
What I'm trying to say is that though I see BBW as having a far superior figure to thin girls (you can't, in my oppinion, ever be too fat), that doesn't stop them from being just as spiteful or mean. If anything, it's a warning to all naive FA's, that to truly love someone, love them for who they are! that means personality, then body! and never let people tell you otherwise, or say that no-one will accept you.
thank you for listening.
this was when I was in 6th form college, the place between gcse shut-in and university full on and proud nerd. I would catagorise this point as a limbo in my life for many reasons. I was unsure of my identity as a geek, and a metal fan, and as a FA throughout this period, but during that time was a real Eye-opener, where I fell in love with lots of great stuff, like comic books, Anime, power metal, black metal, Big women and the beatles (who doesn't love the beatles, besides pete best).
It was also a time of hard knocks and scrapped knees. I want to draw attention to a particular incident. I was working at a local convenience store, at the time, stacking shelves, doing checkout, boring, normal stuff. but for me there was one person who made it both a slog and a bit of heart-ache.
I was working with a woman, she was about the same position as me, but old by about 2 years. this woman was, no bones about it, a BBW in every sense of the word, and it must of been pretty obvious that I fancied her. she twigged very early on, and as a result, she pretty much used me for all the hard jobs that required alot of manual labour. lifting extremely heavy boxes up the stairs, organizing shelves with very vague instructions, and generally making my life hell. when I tried to claim it unfair, all it would take was a fluttering of her eyes and a sway of her hips and I would do it all again.
What was even worse, she made me feel like I could get no other girl apart from her. saying:
"Listen, ed, I know what you like, and I can tell you, i'm the only one whose going to accept what you like!"
whilst I would now tell her to get stuffed, get on with the work and stop being so damn lazy, at that very naive stage of FAism, anyone who would accept you for who you are was a great break. the terrible negative spiral ended when I found my second girlfriend, and she basically lost it, moved to a different store, and never heard of again.
What I'm trying to say is that though I see BBW as having a far superior figure to thin girls (you can't, in my oppinion, ever be too fat), that doesn't stop them from being just as spiteful or mean. If anything, it's a warning to all naive FA's, that to truly love someone, love them for who they are! that means personality, then body! and never let people tell you otherwise, or say that no-one will accept you.
thank you for listening.
