Click this link for a photo of A bit more of me Well I guess all this time I have been covering up to save myself for someone really special. Didnt want to show all my wears to everyone, but recently I really questioned myself and find that I cover up because I dont want to show just how big I am to everyone here and to maintain my modesty and girl next door image.
I admire the women that feel confident enough to show all of their beauty in a classy but revealing way. I feel disillusioned as well with the so called adoration of a special person in my life. I am coming clean here and now. I usually consider myself a confident sexy bbw, but lately I question just how intelligent I am. Here is why.... I have been seeing a guy who I have adored completely through 5 years of friendship. He says he loves me to pieces yet I have not met any of his family, or his friends, as a matter of fact I have not met one single person in his life. I have lied to those around me that I love, in telling them that yes, I have met people in his life and yes, he wants me in his real life. I guess I am realizing that life is way to short and I have way too much(no pun intended and pun intended) to share with someone who wants to be in my day to day life.
Its ironic that here I cover up and not show my beautiful fat body to save it for him and here I sit alone ...and he doesnt show me to anyone in his life. He tells me soon...soon....I will treat you like a princess and spoil you rotten. I am pathetic..I know....i guess i am niave to have bought into such a romantic idea. He tells me I am special, that there is no one else like me on the planet and we match up like chips.
Well I realize more about myself and have grown in many ways since coming to find Dimensions. I have mixed emotions about men who say they aren't FA's but then get very turned on by increases in size or my fat rollypolly body. I used to get mixed emotions about the guys who said they thought I was so wonderful but they could never date a fat woman/girl.
I want to hear what people think I should do in regards to a huge life issue.....should I say goodbye to a great guy who says he loves me but also wont share me with people in his real life? My gut instincts have been screaming out for well over a year that I should move on, but my heart tells me something different.
Anyways, here is a photo of me not covering up so much anymore. Hopefully I will come to show you just how much of a Dimensions girl/woman I am.
Thanks for listening to my rambling,
Sincerely,
Tara
I admire the women that feel confident enough to show all of their beauty in a classy but revealing way. I feel disillusioned as well with the so called adoration of a special person in my life. I am coming clean here and now. I usually consider myself a confident sexy bbw, but lately I question just how intelligent I am. Here is why.... I have been seeing a guy who I have adored completely through 5 years of friendship. He says he loves me to pieces yet I have not met any of his family, or his friends, as a matter of fact I have not met one single person in his life. I have lied to those around me that I love, in telling them that yes, I have met people in his life and yes, he wants me in his real life. I guess I am realizing that life is way to short and I have way too much(no pun intended and pun intended) to share with someone who wants to be in my day to day life.
Its ironic that here I cover up and not show my beautiful fat body to save it for him and here I sit alone ...and he doesnt show me to anyone in his life. He tells me soon...soon....I will treat you like a princess and spoil you rotten. I am pathetic..I know....i guess i am niave to have bought into such a romantic idea. He tells me I am special, that there is no one else like me on the planet and we match up like chips.
Well I realize more about myself and have grown in many ways since coming to find Dimensions. I have mixed emotions about men who say they aren't FA's but then get very turned on by increases in size or my fat rollypolly body. I used to get mixed emotions about the guys who said they thought I was so wonderful but they could never date a fat woman/girl.
I want to hear what people think I should do in regards to a huge life issue.....should I say goodbye to a great guy who says he loves me but also wont share me with people in his real life? My gut instincts have been screaming out for well over a year that I should move on, but my heart tells me something different.
Anyways, here is a photo of me not covering up so much anymore. Hopefully I will come to show you just how much of a Dimensions girl/woman I am.
Thanks for listening to my rambling,
Sincerely,
Tara
