space_dazee
Active Member
Hi all, I already kind of introduced myself, but figured it wouldn't hurt people to know more. Might be a bit long, so I apologize now. :blush:
As I already stated in the welcome thread, I'm 24 and I live in Wisconsin. I'm a bit of a geek - gaming, star trek, comics, etc. I refer to myself more as a multi-geek than anything as I'm a little bit of a geek in many things rather than big geek in a few things (anything).
I'm really just looking for a place to make friends, even online friends as is usual with me. I was kind of drawn to Dimensions for that reason as most sites I came across were more like dating sites (even if they did have a friends section) and tend to cost a monthly fee to actually talk to others.
I just don't know how to really throw myself into this site. I feel like the 'new' friend in a group, listening to stories that consist mostly of inside jokes and "You just had to be there." moments. It's like everyone here knows everyone else already, lol. I've also just become so used to rejection that I've given up on really trying. I'm not sure how to handle a place that is MORE likely to accept me because of how I look. Usually I have to win people over with my personality and hope they don't suddenly stop talking to me once we finally get down to picture exchanges. Which has happened more times than I'd like to count.
It's also.. well, kind of scary being on a site where I feel like the real me (my personality) will be 'judged' rather than my appearance at all, and I'm just not used to that. I'm also not used to a place that so openly talks about weight. Even among my friends (online or not), unless they are on the bigger side too, it's just not something that's talked about and is usually avoided. It's great and intimidating all at the same time to have that openness here.
I really don't know how to handle it all, other than to (dorkily) be honest and say that I want to be here, want to talk to, flirt with, and meet people.. but don't know how to get over the sudden shyness that has resurfaced that I thought I conquered years ago.
So hi.. this is me.. I'm scared and I just want to feel completely accepted for once in my life.
As I already stated in the welcome thread, I'm 24 and I live in Wisconsin. I'm a bit of a geek - gaming, star trek, comics, etc. I refer to myself more as a multi-geek than anything as I'm a little bit of a geek in many things rather than big geek in a few things (anything).
I'm really just looking for a place to make friends, even online friends as is usual with me. I was kind of drawn to Dimensions for that reason as most sites I came across were more like dating sites (even if they did have a friends section) and tend to cost a monthly fee to actually talk to others.
I just don't know how to really throw myself into this site. I feel like the 'new' friend in a group, listening to stories that consist mostly of inside jokes and "You just had to be there." moments. It's like everyone here knows everyone else already, lol. I've also just become so used to rejection that I've given up on really trying. I'm not sure how to handle a place that is MORE likely to accept me because of how I look. Usually I have to win people over with my personality and hope they don't suddenly stop talking to me once we finally get down to picture exchanges. Which has happened more times than I'd like to count.
It's also.. well, kind of scary being on a site where I feel like the real me (my personality) will be 'judged' rather than my appearance at all, and I'm just not used to that. I'm also not used to a place that so openly talks about weight. Even among my friends (online or not), unless they are on the bigger side too, it's just not something that's talked about and is usually avoided. It's great and intimidating all at the same time to have that openness here.
I really don't know how to handle it all, other than to (dorkily) be honest and say that I want to be here, want to talk to, flirt with, and meet people.. but don't know how to get over the sudden shyness that has resurfaced that I thought I conquered years ago.
So hi.. this is me.. I'm scared and I just want to feel completely accepted for once in my life.
