In the last few months I've discovered romance/erotic ebooks and I've really enjoyed reading them. What can I say, they're hot. 
But here lately I've become frustrated because they're making me crave things I don't have in my life. I know they're just books and they exaggerate feelings/desires/relationships, but that doesn't keep me from wanting what I'm reading about.
To have (or rather, to not have) someone that's crazy about me and that I'm crazy about is well....driving me crazy. That's where the frustration is coming into the picture. Dammit, I want some passion in my life. I don't think there's even one FA in my little town here. Parties and meetings for BBW's and FA's are hours from where I live and difficult for me to attend.
I've read posts by BBW's who are bold and put themselves out there and I'd love to be like them, but it's difficult when you're a little reserved. I even considered writing this under an anonymous username but decided to just be honest and myself.
Anyway, I'm wondering if there are other BBW's here that have gone through what I'm going through now? What did you do to get through it? Maybe I need to quit reading the damn books, but I have a feeling it's not going to change the way I feel.
Thanks for any advice given.
Teresa
But here lately I've become frustrated because they're making me crave things I don't have in my life. I know they're just books and they exaggerate feelings/desires/relationships, but that doesn't keep me from wanting what I'm reading about. To have (or rather, to not have) someone that's crazy about me and that I'm crazy about is well....driving me crazy. That's where the frustration is coming into the picture. Dammit, I want some passion in my life. I don't think there's even one FA in my little town here. Parties and meetings for BBW's and FA's are hours from where I live and difficult for me to attend.
I've read posts by BBW's who are bold and put themselves out there and I'd love to be like them, but it's difficult when you're a little reserved. I even considered writing this under an anonymous username but decided to just be honest and myself.
Anyway, I'm wondering if there are other BBW's here that have gone through what I'm going through now? What did you do to get through it? Maybe I need to quit reading the damn books, but I have a feeling it's not going to change the way I feel.
Thanks for any advice given.
Teresa
