FatBarbieDoll
Well-Known Member
The person I loved (always will) more than any other is a Canadian man of 52.
He would contact me maybe 3 times per year wanting mainly sex (he's not married and lives in my city).
He jiggled my large belly at least once and also talked about tying me up and feeding me dinner but only mentoned it one time.
When we met up, he wanted me to walk towards and away from him completely nude. I still wonder to this day if he's a secret FA but doesn't know it or won't admit it.
I checked out the profiles of one former and another current pal, and they made fatphobic comments, so I ask myself if he's afraid to leave the fat closet because he is insecure, and needs their approval or something. I guess this is also a rant of sorts.
I loved -- and will always love -- that man with a passion I never felt before we met.
I realize he was probably seeing other women and used me as an option when nothing else was there but I also can't help but wonder if he was distancing himself too so he didn't get hooked and have a fat girlfriend to introduce.
The last time I saw him was in November of 2014. I hadn't seen him for months prior to then and he barley made it in the door before he had his hands all over me and started kissing me.
Then the cycle would repeat, with him pulling a Houdini for God knows how long until he contacted me again (he's on Facebook often, so I know he's OK). He would apologize for not keeping in contact, citing his being "busy" as an excuse.
This time, things are different because I met someone else, and am trying to learn to love another man.
He would contact me maybe 3 times per year wanting mainly sex (he's not married and lives in my city).
He jiggled my large belly at least once and also talked about tying me up and feeding me dinner but only mentoned it one time.
When we met up, he wanted me to walk towards and away from him completely nude. I still wonder to this day if he's a secret FA but doesn't know it or won't admit it.
I checked out the profiles of one former and another current pal, and they made fatphobic comments, so I ask myself if he's afraid to leave the fat closet because he is insecure, and needs their approval or something. I guess this is also a rant of sorts.
I loved -- and will always love -- that man with a passion I never felt before we met.
I realize he was probably seeing other women and used me as an option when nothing else was there but I also can't help but wonder if he was distancing himself too so he didn't get hooked and have a fat girlfriend to introduce.
The last time I saw him was in November of 2014. I hadn't seen him for months prior to then and he barley made it in the door before he had his hands all over me and started kissing me.
Then the cycle would repeat, with him pulling a Houdini for God knows how long until he contacted me again (he's on Facebook often, so I know he's OK). He would apologize for not keeping in contact, citing his being "busy" as an excuse.
This time, things are different because I met someone else, and am trying to learn to love another man.
