Shan34
Well-Known Member
Not sure that this is the correct place to post this, if there is a better place please let me know.
Do you ever really move on from someone that haunts you? Someone that has made such an impact on your life, someone that you have loved unconditionally? Talking about a connection from the very start that is beyond anything you could imagine and unexplainable.
I get attached to people, places and even things fairly easily sometimes but this is way more than that. And the last couple of days I can't get him out of my mind and I thought by now it would be easier, but I'm in torment.
To outsiders looking in, I've moved on. I've got a great boyfriend who loves and cares for me and is super comfy to be around. But nobody knows how hard I struggle to not reach out to the one who haunts me. Makes me feel awful to be giving so much energy to this while I've got this great man at my side.
There was no heartbreak. We've never even met face to face. Have talked countless hours in the last 3 years. By the time he was ready to meet face to face, it was too late. The man I had been dating told me he loved me. And now I'm responsible for this man's heart and I can't go dragging it through the mud. I wont.
Feeling hopeless....
Do you ever really move on from someone that haunts you? Someone that has made such an impact on your life, someone that you have loved unconditionally? Talking about a connection from the very start that is beyond anything you could imagine and unexplainable.
I get attached to people, places and even things fairly easily sometimes but this is way more than that. And the last couple of days I can't get him out of my mind and I thought by now it would be easier, but I'm in torment.
To outsiders looking in, I've moved on. I've got a great boyfriend who loves and cares for me and is super comfy to be around. But nobody knows how hard I struggle to not reach out to the one who haunts me. Makes me feel awful to be giving so much energy to this while I've got this great man at my side.
There was no heartbreak. We've never even met face to face. Have talked countless hours in the last 3 years. By the time he was ready to meet face to face, it was too late. The man I had been dating told me he loved me. And now I'm responsible for this man's heart and I can't go dragging it through the mud. I wont.
Feeling hopeless....
