Just curious~
I myself, for the last 9-10 years, am much larger than the average girl and cannot in any way be termed slender or slim. However, as a child in my early-mid teens, though I had wanted to be thin and slim and look like a supermodel lkike in all the glossy magazines, I had never knowingly been jealous of a person.
See, when I was about 14-15 my younger female cousin (and her family of course) from Norwey came to visit us. My family isnt very large but quite close despite being so far apart so naturally the cousins are made to treat and consider one another as siblings rather than cousins. She is a stunner according to todays image of beauty(not to FA's though
). Being mixed with asian and norwegian blood helps alot I am sure.
Anyways~ She is slim and tall, wonderful posture. She is fair (almost white! Seriously) and was very lucky to have inherited our grandmother's dark arabian features of black hair and large black eyes with eyelashes to die for! Her features are all feminine and lovely and put together makes a picture of beauty. Men drooled over her even at such a young age. Also, she did well in school and was generally well-like because she was a sweetie.
Towards the end of their visit, the last week they were here if I recall correctly, my aunt and mom approached me.
They said "Darling, we just want you to know how proud we are of you!"
I was like "What?"
Them: You know! About how wonderful you are not to be jealous of your cousin! We were so worried you might have trouble getting along but you didn't! We are so proud of you!
Me: "..." Of course not! I mean! She is my cousin! I love her! I admire her beauty! It would be awful and stupid to be jealous!
Them: ^_^ Of course darling.
That got me thinking for the first time... "How unattractive am I that they would think that I would be sincerely jealous of my own wonderful cousin who has never been anything but nice to me?" I felt like a huge ugly pig and I questioned what people thought of me. Did they really presume I was so shallow as to be jealous of thin/slim people? Of my friends? Of my cousins? To feel negatively towards them? My goodness! :doh: Later my mom (whom I suspect harboured the wish that she had a daughter ad lovely and seemingly perfect as my cousin) decided I was a beautiful person as I was because I never caused her intentional heartache due to rebellion and some sillyness like that like my cousin did with my aunt as she became older. I suspect this has more to do with my Asian value upbringing and her more Westernised value upbringing though and I pointed it out. My mom mantains that a good daughter wouldnt make her mom upset so I let it be. My cousin is a sweetie and I adore her :wubu: but Jealous? Phffft~ Not!
So I was wondering, how many of you lovely BBW's have been accused of being jealous of your friends or family members who are slender or slim or just plain smaller than you? Note : I do harbour jealousy towards models and skinny actresses but only because I dont seem to really perceive them as 'real' people Plus I dont appreciate them making me feel like an oversized cow. Hahaha!
I myself, for the last 9-10 years, am much larger than the average girl and cannot in any way be termed slender or slim. However, as a child in my early-mid teens, though I had wanted to be thin and slim and look like a supermodel lkike in all the glossy magazines, I had never knowingly been jealous of a person.
See, when I was about 14-15 my younger female cousin (and her family of course) from Norwey came to visit us. My family isnt very large but quite close despite being so far apart so naturally the cousins are made to treat and consider one another as siblings rather than cousins. She is a stunner according to todays image of beauty(not to FA's though
). Being mixed with asian and norwegian blood helps alot I am sure.Anyways~ She is slim and tall, wonderful posture. She is fair (almost white! Seriously) and was very lucky to have inherited our grandmother's dark arabian features of black hair and large black eyes with eyelashes to die for! Her features are all feminine and lovely and put together makes a picture of beauty. Men drooled over her even at such a young age. Also, she did well in school and was generally well-like because she was a sweetie.
Towards the end of their visit, the last week they were here if I recall correctly, my aunt and mom approached me.
They said "Darling, we just want you to know how proud we are of you!"
I was like
"What?"Them: You know! About how wonderful you are not to be jealous of your cousin! We were so worried you might have trouble getting along but you didn't! We are so proud of you!
Me: "..." Of course not! I mean! She is my cousin! I love her! I admire her beauty! It would be awful and stupid to be jealous!
Them: ^_^ Of course darling.
That got me thinking for the first time... "How unattractive am I that they would think that I would be sincerely jealous of my own wonderful cousin who has never been anything but nice to me?" I felt like a huge ugly pig and I questioned what people thought of me. Did they really presume I was so shallow as to be jealous of thin/slim people? Of my friends? Of my cousins? To feel negatively towards them? My goodness! :doh: Later my mom (whom I suspect harboured the wish that she had a daughter ad lovely and seemingly perfect as my cousin) decided I was a beautiful person as I was because I never caused her intentional heartache due to rebellion and some sillyness like that like my cousin did with my aunt as she became older. I suspect this has more to do with my Asian value upbringing and her more Westernised value upbringing though and I pointed it out. My mom mantains that a good daughter wouldnt make her mom upset so I let it be. My cousin is a sweetie and I adore her :wubu: but Jealous? Phffft~ Not!
So I was wondering, how many of you lovely BBW's have been accused of being jealous of your friends or family members who are slender or slim or just plain smaller than you?
Note : I do harbour jealousy towards models and skinny actresses but only because I dont seem to really perceive them as 'real' people Plus I dont appreciate them making me feel like an oversized cow. Hahaha!
