Recently I've been pondering an issue I have with myself. Can I really be a supporter of the Fat Acceptance Movement when my weight is my point of self loathing?
Don't get me wrong, I think that the girls and boys of this board are beautiful. Whenever I see a photo of one of the many gorgeous girls here, my eyes turn green with envy. When I'm out and about, my gaze will tend to be drawn to the bigger passersby. I like a girl or boy with a bit more than a tiny layer of skin stretching across rib cages. But, when I look to myself in the mirror, I'm somewhat disgusted by the massive arms, chunky legs, and swollen stomach I'm confronted with.
Someone can tell me I'm beautiful, and I won't believe them. I realize how silly this sounds, why would a partner tell my I'm beautiful if they didn't think it was the case? More than likely, they wouldn't want to be with me if they didn't appreciate my looks.
Is it self confidence that makes a person so attractive? Does a lack of self esteem represent a big turn off to most people?
Am I massive hypocrite for feeling this way? Sometimes I feel like a fraud looking through these boards, as I see so many people loving their bodies, and yet deep down, I hate mine.
I realize Dims is all about Fat Acceptance, and so I can only imagine my point of view is a step away from the general ethos of the community, but hopefully people won't resent me for trying to start a discussion about the negative self image of fat girls.
Don't get me wrong, I think that the girls and boys of this board are beautiful. Whenever I see a photo of one of the many gorgeous girls here, my eyes turn green with envy. When I'm out and about, my gaze will tend to be drawn to the bigger passersby. I like a girl or boy with a bit more than a tiny layer of skin stretching across rib cages. But, when I look to myself in the mirror, I'm somewhat disgusted by the massive arms, chunky legs, and swollen stomach I'm confronted with.
Someone can tell me I'm beautiful, and I won't believe them. I realize how silly this sounds, why would a partner tell my I'm beautiful if they didn't think it was the case? More than likely, they wouldn't want to be with me if they didn't appreciate my looks.
Is it self confidence that makes a person so attractive? Does a lack of self esteem represent a big turn off to most people?
Am I massive hypocrite for feeling this way? Sometimes I feel like a fraud looking through these boards, as I see so many people loving their bodies, and yet deep down, I hate mine.
I realize Dims is all about Fat Acceptance, and so I can only imagine my point of view is a step away from the general ethos of the community, but hopefully people won't resent me for trying to start a discussion about the negative self image of fat girls.
