BeautifulPoeticDisaster
Well-Known Member
This subject has not been talked about. We have talked about gaining and losing...but what about the fears associated with those changes?
I was thinking about the thread "fear of Dieting"...as I think about things offline that I read online, lol. As I was phrasing the question differently in my head I began to realise that people could be interpreting the questions differently. Then I started to think about my own life.
I fear getting larger. I fear all the complications that come from immobility..and I think most of us feel that way.
What about however, the comfort that being fat brings us?
I for one have never been thin a single day in my life. Being thin...or even a small BBW would cause me to have a complete identity crisis. There are people who freak out when they hear me talk about weight loss afriad Im trying to get thin. I want to b around 400....for my own sanity.
Being thin to me...is scary. The thought of not knowing if people are being real or are just around me because of how I look. I know those same fears exist in the BBW world...but to me they seem much more of a problem when thin. Sure dating would be easier...but would every guy want into my pants because I have a hot bod? Hell if I know, lol, Ive never been thin...Im just looking through the windows of the thin world so to speak.
I find comfort in my size. Im 5'10" and an Ultra Sized bbw with quite an attitude in real life. My existance commands attention. How would I cope without that 'power'?
Being thin you are like everyone else....which would be nice, I will admit....but what about self protection? I used to be more agile and quick...but I can still kick over my head and do the splits.....and Im not a turtle, lol....and I think if it came down to it...I could kick some serious ass.
My fat makes me feel safe. Even though it can be a source of pain and insecurity.....it makes me feel safer than any can of mace would.
You know that bumper sticker "Fat people are harder to kidnap"? I read that, and I see truth in that. It is hella hard to pick up a 400+ pound woman and stuff her in a van....and somehow...that makes me warm and fuzzy and feel a bit safer. I know some people are offended by that bumper sticker, lol, owell. To each their own.
I know I am rambling...but I hope my point comes across. It's not a fear of dieting/weight loss for me as much as it is my body changing to a point that I have less power and control over the things other people do to me.
There, I admit it...Im afriad to be smaller than a ssbbw. I dont think I could function in the world anymore since I have been supersized since I was a todler.
Just some thoughts. I would like to hear other peoples thoughts on their size...or my size for that matter, lol.
I was thinking about the thread "fear of Dieting"...as I think about things offline that I read online, lol. As I was phrasing the question differently in my head I began to realise that people could be interpreting the questions differently. Then I started to think about my own life.
I fear getting larger. I fear all the complications that come from immobility..and I think most of us feel that way.
What about however, the comfort that being fat brings us?
I for one have never been thin a single day in my life. Being thin...or even a small BBW would cause me to have a complete identity crisis. There are people who freak out when they hear me talk about weight loss afriad Im trying to get thin. I want to b around 400....for my own sanity.
Being thin to me...is scary. The thought of not knowing if people are being real or are just around me because of how I look. I know those same fears exist in the BBW world...but to me they seem much more of a problem when thin. Sure dating would be easier...but would every guy want into my pants because I have a hot bod? Hell if I know, lol, Ive never been thin...Im just looking through the windows of the thin world so to speak.
I find comfort in my size. Im 5'10" and an Ultra Sized bbw with quite an attitude in real life. My existance commands attention. How would I cope without that 'power'?
Being thin you are like everyone else....which would be nice, I will admit....but what about self protection? I used to be more agile and quick...but I can still kick over my head and do the splits.....and Im not a turtle, lol....and I think if it came down to it...I could kick some serious ass.
My fat makes me feel safe. Even though it can be a source of pain and insecurity.....it makes me feel safer than any can of mace would.
You know that bumper sticker "Fat people are harder to kidnap"? I read that, and I see truth in that. It is hella hard to pick up a 400+ pound woman and stuff her in a van....and somehow...that makes me warm and fuzzy and feel a bit safer. I know some people are offended by that bumper sticker, lol, owell. To each their own.
I know I am rambling...but I hope my point comes across. It's not a fear of dieting/weight loss for me as much as it is my body changing to a point that I have less power and control over the things other people do to me.
There, I admit it...Im afriad to be smaller than a ssbbw. I dont think I could function in the world anymore since I have been supersized since I was a todler.
Just some thoughts. I would like to hear other peoples thoughts on their size...or my size for that matter, lol.
