LibrarianFA
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Before I start, a little background is needed. My journey to this point began around 2005 or so when I discovered gaining and that I was interested in it. This led me first to Dims (under another username which I've since forgotten) and later to Fantasy Feeder. Well to make a long story short I eventually turned fantasy to reality and packed on around 25 pounds back in 2010. The feeling of having a belly was wonderful. Of course there was the usual shit from family, but they more or less accepted the way I was. I liked being bigger and still do.
Yet once I'd gained something curious happened. I lost interest in getting bigger. My desire to be fat, if one considers 180 lbs on a 5 foot 7 frame fat, hasn't changed per se. But I have little interest in actively gaining. Part of this may stem from having achieved a goal. Also my blood pressure went up into the 120s over 80s (at least with one of those arm band home measuring units - my doctor read it at 120/80 and that was the highest he'd seen it which is confusing). On top of everything I unintentionally lost a few pounds recently and that did not bother me.
There is some irony to this story, however. You see my career required a relocation to the Deep South. I've already gained all the weight back and I haven't even been here a week
. The stores are fully stocked with fattening snack foods and there is no diet food in sight ... and I think I like that. Has anyone else experienced this sort of confusion? I really am not sure if I'm a gainer or not despite having known about the fetish for years.
Yet once I'd gained something curious happened. I lost interest in getting bigger. My desire to be fat, if one considers 180 lbs on a 5 foot 7 frame fat, hasn't changed per se. But I have little interest in actively gaining. Part of this may stem from having achieved a goal. Also my blood pressure went up into the 120s over 80s (at least with one of those arm band home measuring units - my doctor read it at 120/80 and that was the highest he'd seen it which is confusing). On top of everything I unintentionally lost a few pounds recently and that did not bother me.
There is some irony to this story, however. You see my career required a relocation to the Deep South. I've already gained all the weight back and I haven't even been here a week
. The stores are fully stocked with fattening snack foods and there is no diet food in sight ... and I think I like that. Has anyone else experienced this sort of confusion? I really am not sure if I'm a gainer or not despite having known about the fetish for years.
