(I'd like to preface this thread with: I'm not trying to be pretentious, I just don't know how else to word this)
Despite my clinical depression, anxiety attacks and demophobia(fear of crowds) I'm very popular. Everyone knows me. Anywhere I go I run into someone who knows me from somewhere or someone. Couch, is what I am to them.
I'm a really popular guy. So much so that often times, I don't like it. I literally can not go out without being recognized by someone, and a lot of the time, it's someone that I don't recognize/remember because I meet so many new people every week, and most of the time I go out(due to social anxiety) I was intoxicated when I met these people.
One thing that sucks the most about being so popular is that I have girls all over me. "I love you!" "You're so cool!" "Everyone loves Couch"
I go to this concert series in my city every week in the summer, and as I walk down Main street I get stopped every 30 yards for a hug and a conversation. A lot of the time, its a cute girl talking to me, and some times they're girls that I have interest in, but I'm never able to turn this into any kind of relationship past a friendship. I don't know... I get so many signals and I have no idea how to interpret them.
I'm really book smart and I can run mental circles around most of my professors, but I can't ****ing make the jump into asking someone out. I'm 20 years old and despite being so popular, I've been alone my whole life. I've never been in a relationship, never been on a date.
I don't even know where I'm going with this thread. I just need to get it out of my head.
I guess I'd rather be completely ignored by girls than have this weekly tease deal. Sucks. :doh:
I realize that my personality is attractive, it has to be or else I wouldn't be in this situation, but I also realize that my body is a lot less attractive(to non FFAs... I've only met one FFA and she's been in a relationship for nearly 4 years now) so I don't know how to make them outweigh the weight with the rest of me. And I don't know how to TELL when they already have done that.
Plus I'm literally broke all the time, like I-don't-have-2-dimes-to-rub-together-broke so I can't even take a girl out on a legit date even if I could/did ask one out.
Despite my clinical depression, anxiety attacks and demophobia(fear of crowds) I'm very popular. Everyone knows me. Anywhere I go I run into someone who knows me from somewhere or someone. Couch, is what I am to them.
I'm a really popular guy. So much so that often times, I don't like it. I literally can not go out without being recognized by someone, and a lot of the time, it's someone that I don't recognize/remember because I meet so many new people every week, and most of the time I go out(due to social anxiety) I was intoxicated when I met these people.
One thing that sucks the most about being so popular is that I have girls all over me. "I love you!" "You're so cool!" "Everyone loves Couch"
I go to this concert series in my city every week in the summer, and as I walk down Main street I get stopped every 30 yards for a hug and a conversation. A lot of the time, its a cute girl talking to me, and some times they're girls that I have interest in, but I'm never able to turn this into any kind of relationship past a friendship. I don't know... I get so many signals and I have no idea how to interpret them.
I'm really book smart and I can run mental circles around most of my professors, but I can't ****ing make the jump into asking someone out. I'm 20 years old and despite being so popular, I've been alone my whole life. I've never been in a relationship, never been on a date.
I don't even know where I'm going with this thread. I just need to get it out of my head.
I guess I'd rather be completely ignored by girls than have this weekly tease deal. Sucks. :doh:
I realize that my personality is attractive, it has to be or else I wouldn't be in this situation, but I also realize that my body is a lot less attractive(to non FFAs... I've only met one FFA and she's been in a relationship for nearly 4 years now) so I don't know how to make them outweigh the weight with the rest of me. And I don't know how to TELL when they already have done that.
Plus I'm literally broke all the time, like I-don't-have-2-dimes-to-rub-together-broke so I can't even take a girl out on a legit date even if I could/did ask one out.
