Okay, guys... my foolish post I put as "At The End of My Rope" was a mistake... you know, I made a promise, long ago, to never do this on message boards again. Why didn't I just go rant to a friend? It got so out of control, now someone hates me, when I never intended to hurt her... She went cussing at me, calling me a troll, or other things... I love everyone here, how could I make this happen? This is a reason why I sometimes cannot live with myself. After I make terrible, irreversable mistakes.
I was trying to take all of your advice carefully on that thread, but, in my suicidal and depressed rage, I do not listen to anyone during that time. When I am depressed, badly, I do not listen, become stubborn, and exxagerate things to the point they are meant to offend. I should just take the points I agree with instead of taking it all in to make me feel far worse. I should of never posted that damn thread... it was a big, huge mistake...
I promise, from this day forth, it will never happen again. please, don't hate me, everyone... I don't know what to do if you did. Now I made it so alot of people don't believe me anymore, so much for this place being a home... mabye I should leave this place permenantly, although everyone here shares my concerns and beliefs. I finally found a fat person paradise online, but, it is all ruined by my one stupid rant post.
Everyone... are you cool with me? Do you want me to leave forever? Please answer this simple question, so I can shutup, and get on with enjoying this place, then try to find out how to get help besides my therapist.
I was trying to take all of your advice carefully on that thread, but, in my suicidal and depressed rage, I do not listen to anyone during that time. When I am depressed, badly, I do not listen, become stubborn, and exxagerate things to the point they are meant to offend. I should just take the points I agree with instead of taking it all in to make me feel far worse. I should of never posted that damn thread... it was a big, huge mistake...
I promise, from this day forth, it will never happen again. please, don't hate me, everyone... I don't know what to do if you did. Now I made it so alot of people don't believe me anymore, so much for this place being a home... mabye I should leave this place permenantly, although everyone here shares my concerns and beliefs. I finally found a fat person paradise online, but, it is all ruined by my one stupid rant post.
Everyone... are you cool with me? Do you want me to leave forever? Please answer this simple question, so I can shutup, and get on with enjoying this place, then try to find out how to get help besides my therapist.
