saturdayasusual
Miss Misery
A few nights ago, Aris and I were walking back to our dorm from a friends apartment. It was late, we were tired, and we really just wanted to get back to go to bed. So, we're minding our own business walking along, and this SUV drives by and a guy randomly leans out the window and shouts something about me being a "fat ****". I didn't hear all of what he said, but it was definitely something derogatory.
I, personally, found the guy pathetic. But, amazingly, the words didn't phase me at all. It was kind of strange to just experience that though, with no feeling whatsoever. I knew that I was getting more confident and accepting myself the way I am, and learning to love myself, but I guess I didn't realize I'd made it that far yet. A year and a half ago that one comment would have ripped my heart in two. But I've come a long way, and it didn't hurt at all. Definitely a "wow" moment for me.
Aris asked me several times if I was all right, and tried to comfort me because of it. I had to keep telling him I was fine, really, and that he didn't need to worry about me. It felt good to be able to say that and mean it. I didn't have to just say it so I didn't feel belittled by the whole thing. That made me feel accomplished. I don't need to care about what random people think of me.
I told a friend of mine about it. He said, "He was just jealous because you make being fat hot."
My sentiments exactly.
So what about you guys? Has anyone had a "wow" moment, where you realize that just because someone feels like making an ass out of themselves, you don't have to feel bad for it?
I, personally, found the guy pathetic. But, amazingly, the words didn't phase me at all. It was kind of strange to just experience that though, with no feeling whatsoever. I knew that I was getting more confident and accepting myself the way I am, and learning to love myself, but I guess I didn't realize I'd made it that far yet. A year and a half ago that one comment would have ripped my heart in two. But I've come a long way, and it didn't hurt at all. Definitely a "wow" moment for me.
Aris asked me several times if I was all right, and tried to comfort me because of it. I had to keep telling him I was fine, really, and that he didn't need to worry about me. It felt good to be able to say that and mean it. I didn't have to just say it so I didn't feel belittled by the whole thing. That made me feel accomplished. I don't need to care about what random people think of me.
I told a friend of mine about it. He said, "He was just jealous because you make being fat hot."
My sentiments exactly.
So what about you guys? Has anyone had a "wow" moment, where you realize that just because someone feels like making an ass out of themselves, you don't have to feel bad for it?
