Sandie_Zitkus
In Rememberance
I really do. I'm really lonely and while I have a very good friend in NJ - she's in Jersey. And while I can call her anytime to talk or obsess about anything - I still need other friends. Yes - I have Wayne but he can't do what a girl friend can.
I'm admitting to myself finally - that I cannot go through my life never asking for help. I don't like to appear weak - and by doing so I think some people find me cold and or aloof. But I'm scared. I'm afraid of getting hurt again. I'm afraid of getting my heart ripped out again.
And honestly I'm not very good at making friends. I never have been.
So I'm saying it here - I'm lonely - very lonely. And I need a friend or 10. LOL
(that was hard to admit)
I'm admitting to myself finally - that I cannot go through my life never asking for help. I don't like to appear weak - and by doing so I think some people find me cold and or aloof. But I'm scared. I'm afraid of getting hurt again. I'm afraid of getting my heart ripped out again.
And honestly I'm not very good at making friends. I never have been.
So I'm saying it here - I'm lonely - very lonely. And I need a friend or 10. LOL
(that was hard to admit)
