I'm a big baby and I'm scared tonight.

[Sandie_Zitkus]

I haven't allowed myself to be scared because I felt there was no reason to be. I am quite confident that everything will be OK. But I fell apart tonight. I don't feel like being strong for a while. I am afraid of the anesthesia more than the surgery. I'm afraid at my weight anything could go wrong. I just don't want to do this. I hate my freakin gall bladder.

OK I'm gonna wallow for a while - then hopefully I can get some sleep. We will be in Dallas tomorrow night. I know I am making a big deal out of this - but it is a big deal to me.


All my life I've been told by doctors I would not survive any surgery. Damn them.

 

[Aliena]

 

[Jack Skellington]

 

[supersoup]

 

[Sandie_Zitkus]

 

[bigsexy920]

 

[Sandie_Zitkus]

 

[Friday]

 

[Sandie_Zitkus]

 

[djewell]

 

[mimosa]

 

[Sandie_Zitkus]

 

[Sandie_Zitkus]

 

[Midori]

 

[GenericGeek]

 

[1300 Class]

 

[Canonista]

 

[Les Toil]

 

[BBW Betty]

 

[Rowan]