flipflopbaby
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Hi there! Im not quite sure what lead me here tonight, a little soul searching I guess, but here I am. Im Mary, twenty two years old, blue eyes and curves. I work as a preschool teacher during the week, attend college part time, and in my spare time I spoil my Saint Bernard puppy. (Not only am I big and beautiful, so is my dog. :wubu: )
Ive been heavy all my life and have struggled with that most of my childhood and into my adulthood. When I was sixteen I met an admirer online. During the course of our relationship he showed me this site and Ive remembered it for the past six years. That should tell me something about myself, perhaps.
At my highest weight I was around 340 pounds; now Im holding steady at 200 lbs. Its an odd size to be because to most of society a size fourteen is still plus size, but Ive been truly plus size and know that Im not anymore. Then again, Im not really thin either. Im just an in-betweener thats looks great in jeans and is super cuddly.
Ive been really frustrated for the past year because I wanted so desperately to be thin, for all the wrong reasons I think, and it wasnt happening. At some point tonight I came to the conclusion that Im not meant to be 130 pounds and quite enjoy the size I am now. I even had a donut earlier just because its the weekend, I wanted a donut, and I deserved it! :eat2:
I dated a guy for a few months that was attracted to me, yet felt the need to make comments about how beautiful thin women were when his brother or his friends came to visit. Now, hes dating a girl thats bigger than me. Im not quite sure what that was about but it disturbed my thought process for awhile. It was pretty enlightening to come on here and really read the thoughts of the admirers and find that there are guys that actually like the extra fluff I carry around and are proud of their girls. I feel beautiful.
I look forward to getting to know you all on here, learning from you and regaining my confidence.
~ Mary
Ive been heavy all my life and have struggled with that most of my childhood and into my adulthood. When I was sixteen I met an admirer online. During the course of our relationship he showed me this site and Ive remembered it for the past six years. That should tell me something about myself, perhaps.
At my highest weight I was around 340 pounds; now Im holding steady at 200 lbs. Its an odd size to be because to most of society a size fourteen is still plus size, but Ive been truly plus size and know that Im not anymore. Then again, Im not really thin either. Im just an in-betweener thats looks great in jeans and is super cuddly.
Ive been really frustrated for the past year because I wanted so desperately to be thin, for all the wrong reasons I think, and it wasnt happening. At some point tonight I came to the conclusion that Im not meant to be 130 pounds and quite enjoy the size I am now. I even had a donut earlier just because its the weekend, I wanted a donut, and I deserved it! :eat2:
I dated a guy for a few months that was attracted to me, yet felt the need to make comments about how beautiful thin women were when his brother or his friends came to visit. Now, hes dating a girl thats bigger than me. Im not quite sure what that was about but it disturbed my thought process for awhile. It was pretty enlightening to come on here and really read the thoughts of the admirers and find that there are guys that actually like the extra fluff I carry around and are proud of their girls. I feel beautiful.
I look forward to getting to know you all on here, learning from you and regaining my confidence.
~ Mary
