Deidrababe
In Rememberance
I just need to Vent.
Last week, my husband Stephen and I Auditioned for the Dedham Choral Society near our home.
I had an amazing audition where the director told me that I had a beautiful voice and an AMAZING range. I didn't miss a note -- it was perfect. Seriously, not tooting my own horn...it was a flawless audition.
He then told me he had to look at the numbers in the Alto Section. He didn't know if certain people were coming back this spring, so he didn't know if there would be a spot for me.
He told Stephen the same thing about the Bass Section.
He said he would call us by last Friday. No call.
Today, he left a voice mail message for us.
Big Surprise, no room for EITHER of us.
He said he looked over the numbers and there was just no room for the two of us "this semester"
He didn't even suggest coming back in the fall to try again -
The website of the chorus said
"The chorus is looking for all voice parts, especially tenors and basses, to join us in our music making!"
I know this is so trivial, but I can't stop crying.
I know it's because of being so fat.
I wanted to do this so badly! I miss singing and All I want to do is sing because if feels so good
Of course my mother is yelling at me telling me not to cry over something so stupid and I shouldn't be upset because I CHOOSE to be this fat and I've done it to myself.
Normally my mother is very supportive of me, but when I get THIS upset, she yells as she doesn't know how to communicate with compassion.
So, do any of you think I should confront the choral director?
Should I call him Back?
Should I send him an Email?
Snail Mail?
It wouldn't bother me so much if he had just said something like - perhaps there will be room in the fall, why not come back - but...alas, he didn't.
Just as an FYI, there were NO FAT PEOPLE in the chorus. One girl was about a size 14, and that was the fattest person there.
Deeds
Last week, my husband Stephen and I Auditioned for the Dedham Choral Society near our home.
I had an amazing audition where the director told me that I had a beautiful voice and an AMAZING range. I didn't miss a note -- it was perfect. Seriously, not tooting my own horn...it was a flawless audition.
He then told me he had to look at the numbers in the Alto Section. He didn't know if certain people were coming back this spring, so he didn't know if there would be a spot for me.
He told Stephen the same thing about the Bass Section.
He said he would call us by last Friday. No call.
Today, he left a voice mail message for us.
Big Surprise, no room for EITHER of us.
He said he looked over the numbers and there was just no room for the two of us "this semester"
He didn't even suggest coming back in the fall to try again -
The website of the chorus said
"The chorus is looking for all voice parts, especially tenors and basses, to join us in our music making!"
I know this is so trivial, but I can't stop crying.
I know it's because of being so fat.
I wanted to do this so badly! I miss singing and All I want to do is sing because if feels so good
Of course my mother is yelling at me telling me not to cry over something so stupid and I shouldn't be upset because I CHOOSE to be this fat and I've done it to myself.
Normally my mother is very supportive of me, but when I get THIS upset, she yells as she doesn't know how to communicate with compassion.
So, do any of you think I should confront the choral director?
Should I call him Back?
Should I send him an Email?
Snail Mail?
It wouldn't bother me so much if he had just said something like - perhaps there will be room in the fall, why not come back - but...alas, he didn't.
Just as an FYI, there were NO FAT PEOPLE in the chorus. One girl was about a size 14, and that was the fattest person there.
Deeds
