First, hello to everyone. I've been lurking around for quite some time but only recently applied for an account and began posting.
I was wondering if I'm the only 'in between' female... or maybe the only female who feels like she's living in between? When thin society looks at me they see fat. When fat society looks at me they see thin. At functions, I never seem to really fit in and it is really starting to frustrate me.
Am I a skinny bitch? Am I a fat bitch? (As you see, the bitch part is always there. LOL!)
Here's the thing, I know I could adjust my life and be a truly thin person. I've done this before, but it felt like the lie it was. I also know that I could adjust my life and join the ranks of the BBW. I've also taken this route, but it was just as much as of a lie. When left to its own devices, my body gravitates between sizes 14 and 18. (Typically smaller in the summer when I'm out gardening and having a good time and larger in the winter when I'm in hibernation mode.)
In any event, am I the only one?
I was wondering if I'm the only 'in between' female... or maybe the only female who feels like she's living in between? When thin society looks at me they see fat. When fat society looks at me they see thin. At functions, I never seem to really fit in and it is really starting to frustrate me.
Am I a skinny bitch? Am I a fat bitch? (As you see, the bitch part is always there. LOL!)
Here's the thing, I know I could adjust my life and be a truly thin person. I've done this before, but it felt like the lie it was. I also know that I could adjust my life and join the ranks of the BBW. I've also taken this route, but it was just as much as of a lie. When left to its own devices, my body gravitates between sizes 14 and 18. (Typically smaller in the summer when I'm out gardening and having a good time and larger in the winter when I'm in hibernation mode.)
In any event, am I the only one?
