Power_Metal_Kitsune
Mrs. God
Hi, my name is Chandi and I am an FFA with an avowed love of Big Handsome Men. I do not hide the fact that I prefer big men, to anyone ever. I am reasonably attractive, clean and generous towards BHMs that I date, but here's my problem: Everytime I see a cute fat guy or talk to one, I always either say nothing at all or something so incredibly stupid that if he was interested in talking more to me, he isn't anymore. I also was a big lady at one time and still view myself as a large woman (even though I'm so toned now that you can feel most of my bones and muscles and can shop at damn near any store I want).
I know those of you who are BBWs love your size and I'm cool as hell with that, but it wasn't for me due to my lifestyle, and so I lost the weight. Problem is that I look in the mirror and see the old me, and that brings me right back to hgh school and all the taunts about my size, the way my mother made me dress, having to go to prom alone (I didn't even have friends to go with) the nonexistence of my dating life as a teenage-early twentysomething, getting "hogged", couch-dating, and the general hell of being a young fat woman, and that all of a sudden makes me blather like a moron or not say anything. I have lost a lot of dating chances this way.
Please, someone tell me how to get over my irrational fear of tallking to cute fat guys, and when I finally do talk to them, how do I keep from blathering like a fool?
Any help from anyone of either gender would be appreciated.
Thank you for all responses!
+PMK+
I know those of you who are BBWs love your size and I'm cool as hell with that, but it wasn't for me due to my lifestyle, and so I lost the weight. Problem is that I look in the mirror and see the old me, and that brings me right back to hgh school and all the taunts about my size, the way my mother made me dress, having to go to prom alone (I didn't even have friends to go with) the nonexistence of my dating life as a teenage-early twentysomething, getting "hogged", couch-dating, and the general hell of being a young fat woman, and that all of a sudden makes me blather like a moron or not say anything. I have lost a lot of dating chances this way.
Please, someone tell me how to get over my irrational fear of tallking to cute fat guys, and when I finally do talk to them, how do I keep from blathering like a fool?
Any help from anyone of either gender would be appreciated.
Thank you for all responses!
+PMK+
