Okay lol here's the story. I need outside opinions really bad because sometimes I believe my friends don't tell me the truth. THIS IS REALLY LONG lol. But I need help.
I am friends with this kid, James. We met last year around this time in school, and ever since them him, me, and these two girls(Let's call them Marie and Lily lol they're sisters) have been inseperable. We've all been best friends since the very beginning. Well, when I first met him I thought he was cute. But as I got to know him, I just appreciated him as a friend. Well things changed and I realized I was having really strong feelings for him, and it seemed he felt the same way. Problem was, he had a girlfriend. So while he'd flirt with me, he was dating this other girl. Eventually over the summer he broke up with her and spent like every single day with us. For a while I kind of forgot about liking him and we got closer and closer as friends and I didnt suspect anything weird and kind of didn't feel anything for a while because I pushed it away as stupid. In about November I had a fight with Marie and Lily and didnt speak to them for a while, and he was there for me and helped me through the whole thing. It was when I realized I think I really did like him. I got butterflies whenever I was around him, and got kind of nervous. So things got better with the other girls. Then he asked me to Prom and we slow danced together and he kissed my head. That kind of did it for me lol. I was in love. And I can say love because I love him as my best friend, but I am in love with him. I love him so much it hurts. So, after a while I decided I needed him to know. So I wrote him a note. The reply was that he wanted us to only be friends. So, I kind of tried to get over him.
Well, he never was as close to me as he was to the other girls. Like, he'd call THEM if we were doing something. He just never seemed that interested in me. But suddenly (I gave him the note in May) he is, I don't want to say obsessed, but slightly lol. He calls me every day, and he started picking me up after work at like 11 at night and we go to this park (we call it "our park") and talk for hours sometimes until 3 AM. He tells me secrets he's never told anyone before. And we can't tell our friends about it, because they have jealousy issues and dont like the idea of us alone together. But when I'm with him, it's like nothing I've ever felt. We're like connected. We talk so fluently, so easily to each other. He told me about how he was so afraid that he'd going to end up alone. We share fears and stuff. Physically, he is so nervous around me nowadays. He is jumpy, and does touch me more often than he used to but more than that I see him looking lol. I catch him and always laugh and we kind of laugh it off. But sometimes if we touch, like if he takes my hand when its dark and scary, its really nice. And I cant say he likes me because he told me he didn't, he said we should be friends. I dont want to set myself up for disappointment. But sometimes I sit here and I anticipate his calls. I am in love with him in every sense of the term, but now I feel like he's somehow reciprocating. All of a sudden he takes SUCH interest in me. We've gone to this dark park 7 nights in a row, and we just sit and talk for hours and sometimes we go to his house and just lay on his bed and talk.
From what I've told you, does he like me? Or now that he knows I like him is he messing with my head? I'm so confused and I just need help with it. Sorry for rambling lol. But it's been bugging me and ya'll were so nice I figured you could help. Thanks lol I'm a nutjob.
I am friends with this kid, James. We met last year around this time in school, and ever since them him, me, and these two girls(Let's call them Marie and Lily lol they're sisters) have been inseperable. We've all been best friends since the very beginning. Well, when I first met him I thought he was cute. But as I got to know him, I just appreciated him as a friend. Well things changed and I realized I was having really strong feelings for him, and it seemed he felt the same way. Problem was, he had a girlfriend. So while he'd flirt with me, he was dating this other girl. Eventually over the summer he broke up with her and spent like every single day with us. For a while I kind of forgot about liking him and we got closer and closer as friends and I didnt suspect anything weird and kind of didn't feel anything for a while because I pushed it away as stupid. In about November I had a fight with Marie and Lily and didnt speak to them for a while, and he was there for me and helped me through the whole thing. It was when I realized I think I really did like him. I got butterflies whenever I was around him, and got kind of nervous. So things got better with the other girls. Then he asked me to Prom and we slow danced together and he kissed my head. That kind of did it for me lol. I was in love. And I can say love because I love him as my best friend, but I am in love with him. I love him so much it hurts. So, after a while I decided I needed him to know. So I wrote him a note. The reply was that he wanted us to only be friends. So, I kind of tried to get over him.
Well, he never was as close to me as he was to the other girls. Like, he'd call THEM if we were doing something. He just never seemed that interested in me. But suddenly (I gave him the note in May) he is, I don't want to say obsessed, but slightly lol. He calls me every day, and he started picking me up after work at like 11 at night and we go to this park (we call it "our park") and talk for hours sometimes until 3 AM. He tells me secrets he's never told anyone before. And we can't tell our friends about it, because they have jealousy issues and dont like the idea of us alone together. But when I'm with him, it's like nothing I've ever felt. We're like connected. We talk so fluently, so easily to each other. He told me about how he was so afraid that he'd going to end up alone. We share fears and stuff. Physically, he is so nervous around me nowadays. He is jumpy, and does touch me more often than he used to but more than that I see him looking lol. I catch him and always laugh and we kind of laugh it off. But sometimes if we touch, like if he takes my hand when its dark and scary, its really nice. And I cant say he likes me because he told me he didn't, he said we should be friends. I dont want to set myself up for disappointment. But sometimes I sit here and I anticipate his calls. I am in love with him in every sense of the term, but now I feel like he's somehow reciprocating. All of a sudden he takes SUCH interest in me. We've gone to this dark park 7 nights in a row, and we just sit and talk for hours and sometimes we go to his house and just lay on his bed and talk.
From what I've told you, does he like me? Or now that he knows I like him is he messing with my head? I'm so confused and I just need help with it. Sorry for rambling lol. But it's been bugging me and ya'll were so nice I figured you could help. Thanks lol I'm a nutjob.
