Hey all :]
I'll preface this by saying that I'm so happy to finally get up the nerve to post. I've perused Dims for a long while, and I've grown in my self-confidence and come to realize... there ARE men who think I'm sexy! Before joining the forum, I never thought I'd see the day where guys would turn their heads for me. I've lost about 60 pounds in the last year, and with that I've come to see how superficial we as a society are. Old acquaintances come up to me and treat me differently just because I look so different. I sat down last night (more like early morning... I'm an insomniac!) and just wrote and wrote out of frustration. I've got a blog (http://whatiskacki.blogspot.com/) where I vent and try to explain this crazy thing called Life.
Again, I hope that I'll be welcomed with open arms, as I'm sure I will :]
P.S. Here is an excerpt from my blog called "What is Beauty?"
---------------
What is Beauty?
People often say that beauty lies in the eye of the beholder. I say that the most invigorating thing about beauty is coming to realize that YOU are the beholder. Use this to empower you and inspire you to find beauty in places where others have not dared or chose to look, including inside of yourself. There is no venerable beauty in something when it is not unique and lost in itself.
The kind of beauty I want most is the hard to find variety that comes from within. The type that encompasses strength, courage, self-respect, and decorum. In the grand scheme of things, physical beauty is meaningless and transient. It is irrational to wish for such beauty, and wise people neither desire it for themselves nor care about it in others. If the mind is well cultivated, and the heart honorably inclined, not one should care about the exterior.
Whatever is in any way truly beautiful has a foundation of magnificence and is fully complete in itself admiration forms no part of it. When it is real, an individual is neither worse nor better for being praised, because they know who they are inside and other people cannot sway their belief in themselves. Everyone has their own individual beauty, but not everyone can see it.
When you find all virtuous good as good, there is recognition of evil. When you know true beauty as beauty, you recognize ugliness. What a bizarre delusion it is to suppose that physical beauty is goodness. Beauty as I feel it is something incommunicable; what it is or what it means can never be fully described. Such beauty, in its pure form, motivates the observant soul to contemplate. What you believe to be beautiful and true, you will never destroy. The ability to see this is a part of your collective self-awareness.
A fantastic thing in life is the discovery of another human being with whom one's relationship has a glowing complexity, beauty, and joy as time increases. This inner evolution of Love between two is a most marvelous thing; found by seeking passionately, not by fervently desiring for it. This beauty is no Divine accident.
We all carry around so much pain in our hearts. As individuals, we must approach and find beauty through our own mistakes and accumulated experience. Love and pain and beauty it's a chaotic and confusing thing. Just think of all the beauty around you Nature and such Order of the Universe and be happy.
Love,
Kacki
______________
P.S.S. Hope you like my pictures!
View attachment n1529340044_1141_6438.jpg
View attachment n1529340044_1143_7026.jpg
View attachment n688480143_4231057_3896.jpg
View attachment n688480143_4231064_6535.jpg
View attachment n688480143_4299923_2.jpg
I'll preface this by saying that I'm so happy to finally get up the nerve to post. I've perused Dims for a long while, and I've grown in my self-confidence and come to realize... there ARE men who think I'm sexy! Before joining the forum, I never thought I'd see the day where guys would turn their heads for me. I've lost about 60 pounds in the last year, and with that I've come to see how superficial we as a society are. Old acquaintances come up to me and treat me differently just because I look so different. I sat down last night (more like early morning... I'm an insomniac!) and just wrote and wrote out of frustration. I've got a blog (http://whatiskacki.blogspot.com/) where I vent and try to explain this crazy thing called Life.
Again, I hope that I'll be welcomed with open arms, as I'm sure I will :]
P.S. Here is an excerpt from my blog called "What is Beauty?"
---------------
What is Beauty?
People often say that beauty lies in the eye of the beholder. I say that the most invigorating thing about beauty is coming to realize that YOU are the beholder. Use this to empower you and inspire you to find beauty in places where others have not dared or chose to look, including inside of yourself. There is no venerable beauty in something when it is not unique and lost in itself.
The kind of beauty I want most is the hard to find variety that comes from within. The type that encompasses strength, courage, self-respect, and decorum. In the grand scheme of things, physical beauty is meaningless and transient. It is irrational to wish for such beauty, and wise people neither desire it for themselves nor care about it in others. If the mind is well cultivated, and the heart honorably inclined, not one should care about the exterior.
Whatever is in any way truly beautiful has a foundation of magnificence and is fully complete in itself admiration forms no part of it. When it is real, an individual is neither worse nor better for being praised, because they know who they are inside and other people cannot sway their belief in themselves. Everyone has their own individual beauty, but not everyone can see it.
When you find all virtuous good as good, there is recognition of evil. When you know true beauty as beauty, you recognize ugliness. What a bizarre delusion it is to suppose that physical beauty is goodness. Beauty as I feel it is something incommunicable; what it is or what it means can never be fully described. Such beauty, in its pure form, motivates the observant soul to contemplate. What you believe to be beautiful and true, you will never destroy. The ability to see this is a part of your collective self-awareness.
A fantastic thing in life is the discovery of another human being with whom one's relationship has a glowing complexity, beauty, and joy as time increases. This inner evolution of Love between two is a most marvelous thing; found by seeking passionately, not by fervently desiring for it. This beauty is no Divine accident.
We all carry around so much pain in our hearts. As individuals, we must approach and find beauty through our own mistakes and accumulated experience. Love and pain and beauty it's a chaotic and confusing thing. Just think of all the beauty around you Nature and such Order of the Universe and be happy.
Love,
Kacki
______________
P.S.S. Hope you like my pictures!
View attachment n1529340044_1141_6438.jpg
View attachment n1529340044_1143_7026.jpg
View attachment n688480143_4231057_3896.jpg
View attachment n688480143_4231064_6535.jpg
View attachment n688480143_4299923_2.jpg
