rabbitislove
24 Carrot Magic
I love Dims. When I joined in 2006, I was in a relationship where I couldn't be open about my preference for chubby boys.The horror! To even mention it made me blush and giggle like a schoolgirl. What if anyone found out? Like everyone who saw me with my BHM at the time!
However, now I'm a one woman FFA pride parade. Well I'm not in your face, and unfortunately, I'm not on a float with topless fat boys dancing around in a sequent jumpsuit and blocking traffic. But my friends, family and guys I date now know what I want, and I'm comfortable with letting it be known. And I'm happier. However, much like coming out with any sexual deviance, there is miscommunication
The first boyfriend I was open with my ex-boyfriend (we'll call him Chad). Chad is 5'10 and 260. Needless to say, Chad's a big boy. I didn't think it needed to be said, however, he kept deprecating himself for his size, and finally out of frustration I pretty much screamed "IM A CHUBBY CHASER!" while ripping a chunk of my hair out. So for the rest of our courtship, Chad made sure to point it out whenever I rubbed his belly, looked at other fat guys, and tease me about it just because it made him feel better about himself. Or something. He also asked me if I was a feeder (which I'm not), but in a terrified way. Needless to say, Chad was uncomfortable with me being an FFA, but even more uncomfortable with my bisexuality, and the fact that I am my own person, and so he dumped me, and left me bawling my eyes out. Boo-fuckin-hoo. However, the most significant question Chad asked me was "Will you still be attracted to me if I lose weight?" Keep that one in mind.
I should be thanking Chad (which I have yet to do), since I fell in love again. My new man is 6'0 and 250, so not as big as Chad, but still nice and chubby. He'd known about my preference, since we share the same best friend, and is really into it when I rub, poke, grab his belly (Seriously, he's the man of my dreams, if I may gush) :wubu: It was like deja vu though, he's asked me on more than one occasion if I'll still be attracted to him if/when he gets in shape (since he's now working a warehouse job, as opposed to being a driver). I can't say I won't be disappointed, but personality wise he'd my ideal, so the idea of him turning me off hasn't crossed my mind.
I just wonder, what is it about me? I think I come off as the kind of person whose into her man (or woman) for personality - however being an FFA apparently means I'm only into fat guys, and that must be the only reason for me to date them. I hate that accusation that I'm only into aesthetics. Anyone ever run into this before? Its frustrating that my preference becomes the be all and end all of whatever I'd look for in a relationship.
Thanks for letting me rant Dims. Stay classy.
However, now I'm a one woman FFA pride parade. Well I'm not in your face, and unfortunately, I'm not on a float with topless fat boys dancing around in a sequent jumpsuit and blocking traffic. But my friends, family and guys I date now know what I want, and I'm comfortable with letting it be known. And I'm happier. However, much like coming out with any sexual deviance, there is miscommunication
The first boyfriend I was open with my ex-boyfriend (we'll call him Chad). Chad is 5'10 and 260. Needless to say, Chad's a big boy. I didn't think it needed to be said, however, he kept deprecating himself for his size, and finally out of frustration I pretty much screamed "IM A CHUBBY CHASER!" while ripping a chunk of my hair out. So for the rest of our courtship, Chad made sure to point it out whenever I rubbed his belly, looked at other fat guys, and tease me about it just because it made him feel better about himself. Or something. He also asked me if I was a feeder (which I'm not), but in a terrified way. Needless to say, Chad was uncomfortable with me being an FFA, but even more uncomfortable with my bisexuality, and the fact that I am my own person, and so he dumped me, and left me bawling my eyes out. Boo-fuckin-hoo. However, the most significant question Chad asked me was "Will you still be attracted to me if I lose weight?" Keep that one in mind.
I should be thanking Chad (which I have yet to do), since I fell in love again. My new man is 6'0 and 250, so not as big as Chad, but still nice and chubby. He'd known about my preference, since we share the same best friend, and is really into it when I rub, poke, grab his belly (Seriously, he's the man of my dreams, if I may gush) :wubu: It was like deja vu though, he's asked me on more than one occasion if I'll still be attracted to him if/when he gets in shape (since he's now working a warehouse job, as opposed to being a driver). I can't say I won't be disappointed, but personality wise he'd my ideal, so the idea of him turning me off hasn't crossed my mind.
I just wonder, what is it about me? I think I come off as the kind of person whose into her man (or woman) for personality - however being an FFA apparently means I'm only into fat guys, and that must be the only reason for me to date them. I hate that accusation that I'm only into aesthetics. Anyone ever run into this before? Its frustrating that my preference becomes the be all and end all of whatever I'd look for in a relationship.
Thanks for letting me rant Dims. Stay classy.
