Well it is November 20. 21 days after my 38th birthday a left handed Libra born in the year of the Monkey. I have always loved the number 21 
So after 21 long months of lurking on this wonderful board and and its fantastic Mother site (www.dimensionsmagzine.com) I have decided to use Thanksgiving week to try and push my weight from 390 lbs to 401 pounds.
I have even decided to use the extremely clever name of 'Project 400'
About me: After 36 years of trying to pretend I was not the Husky Kid,Fat Kid,Obese Teen. 25 years of therapy pushed on me by parents who cared more about appearance than love itself. Being yelled at because I don't fit in a roller coaster by uncaring sisters .And Finally having surgery that almost killed me (They sewed my lower intestine by 'accident') By trying to force myself to be thin for other people I almost killed myself On Wedsday February 8 2005 I got out of the hospital and became a semi-agoraphobia, with panic disorder a problem I still mildly suffer from today. I decided to let fate dictate what I would become either a neurotic yo-yo dieter unhappy with just about everything,or a gigantic Fat man who is a gluttonous gourmand with a love of food that is as strong as Sex. (Who am I kidding 10 times stronger Ha,Ha) I used to be an avid Bogger and on Thursday Feb 16 I came across this blog when I was Googling the term 'male feeder' a term one of my goth 'Internet pals' told me about:
http://mercuryil.deadjournal.com/2005/02/16/ It was like someone was
reading my mind the description the detail. It opened my eyes to how wonderful the Internet could be to actually realized I was not the only man fantasizing about weighting's 400 lbs,that there were other people who thought exactly like I thought 'I fucking love being FAT'!! and then there was that fantastic link to Dimensions!!! I have always had claustrophobia and privacy issues that only worsened after my botched surgery. I have also have a unsympathetic family who truly were ashamed of my weight. But after reading all the boards (even Hyde Park) on this great sight I finally relazied I was normal and other people have experienced what I have. Thank You Conrad for this sanctuary.
So this is a big step My first post with photos no less and a link to a site detailing my feeding adventure. Why now? Because I am inspired by some of the terrific ladies who post on this board because of their love of being an FFA. I also admire the guys who post about their love of being fat. the positive energy is really terrific. Plus for the first time in 38 years my Mother has genuinely accepted me as her son a Fat son. She even said I could have as many plates as I wanted at Thanksgiving. I always said if that were to happen I would take the week off and indulge myself like I have always wanted. I want to be a feedee,So I have 8 days off a new Wii,cabinets full of food .I have a goal of 5 trips scheuled this week (Therapists.Libraries) with fast food and buffets in between I have a chance to add 10 lbs and reach that magic number of 400 just like I dreamed off so long ago when I was a kid . So I weigh 390 and I just have to see what 400 is like. So for all you FFA's,Feeders.Feedees etc I hope you enjoy my journey who know it might last longer than a week <wink> .
I also learned that a lot of people talk but the proof is in the Photos which leads me to:
Pictures: I spent a lot of time reading and viewing the plus size paysite's and got to really see how brave and confident everyone was. I saw the confidence and power of Heather and her big cuties,I also loved Miss Staci her freaking Sexy Glasses and eating shots,So I figured I would try my best and offer all the FFA 's who frequent this board so regularly and make all of us Fat guys feel great some Photos I will actually try and make them somewhat cool And Just to show you I don't take myself so seriously I even will try and recreate the Classic Seinfeld George Costanza boudoir shot so please be gentle on me and I will take what ever encouragement,criticism anyone has to offer So here goes..........<gulp> Well let's do this.....After several frustating hours I give up on trying to post them in this thread....But thanks to several great folks you can go to this link:
http://new.photos.yahoo.com/bonnyjonbonny/photo/294928803682693759/2
And there you can see me in all my 390 lb glory plus Snacks to boot!!
I would love to hear back from anyone good bad or other Thanks again to all the FFA's BBW's SSBBW's and their supporters!!! Well I gotta get ready to try and go I just keep thinking of that buffett....
Steve
So after 21 long months of lurking on this wonderful board and and its fantastic Mother site (www.dimensionsmagzine.com) I have decided to use Thanksgiving week to try and push my weight from 390 lbs to 401 pounds. I have even decided to use the extremely clever name of 'Project 400'
About me: After 36 years of trying to pretend I was not the Husky Kid,Fat Kid,Obese Teen. 25 years of therapy pushed on me by parents who cared more about appearance than love itself. Being yelled at because I don't fit in a roller coaster by uncaring sisters .And Finally having surgery that almost killed me (They sewed my lower intestine by 'accident') By trying to force myself to be thin for other people I almost killed myself On Wedsday February 8 2005 I got out of the hospital and became a semi-agoraphobia, with panic disorder a problem I still mildly suffer from today. I decided to let fate dictate what I would become either a neurotic yo-yo dieter unhappy with just about everything,or a gigantic Fat man who is a gluttonous gourmand with a love of food that is as strong as Sex. (Who am I kidding 10 times stronger Ha,Ha) I used to be an avid Bogger and on Thursday Feb 16 I came across this blog when I was Googling the term 'male feeder' a term one of my goth 'Internet pals' told me about:
http://mercuryil.deadjournal.com/2005/02/16/ It was like someone was
reading my mind the description the detail. It opened my eyes to how wonderful the Internet could be to actually realized I was not the only man fantasizing about weighting's 400 lbs,that there were other people who thought exactly like I thought 'I fucking love being FAT'!! and then there was that fantastic link to Dimensions!!! I have always had claustrophobia and privacy issues that only worsened after my botched surgery. I have also have a unsympathetic family who truly were ashamed of my weight. But after reading all the boards (even Hyde Park) on this great sight I finally relazied I was normal and other people have experienced what I have. Thank You Conrad for this sanctuary.
So this is a big step My first post with photos no less and a link to a site detailing my feeding adventure. Why now? Because I am inspired by some of the terrific ladies who post on this board because of their love of being an FFA. I also admire the guys who post about their love of being fat. the positive energy is really terrific. Plus for the first time in 38 years my Mother has genuinely accepted me as her son a Fat son. She even said I could have as many plates as I wanted at Thanksgiving. I always said if that were to happen I would take the week off and indulge myself like I have always wanted. I want to be a feedee,So I have 8 days off a new Wii,cabinets full of food .I have a goal of 5 trips scheuled this week (Therapists.Libraries) with fast food and buffets in between I have a chance to add 10 lbs and reach that magic number of 400 just like I dreamed off so long ago when I was a kid . So I weigh 390 and I just have to see what 400 is like. So for all you FFA's,Feeders.Feedees etc I hope you enjoy my journey who know it might last longer than a week <wink> .
I also learned that a lot of people talk but the proof is in the Photos
which leads me to: Pictures: I spent a lot of time reading and viewing the plus size paysite's and got to really see how brave and confident everyone was. I saw the confidence and power of Heather and her big cuties,I also loved Miss Staci her freaking Sexy Glasses and eating shots,So I figured I would try my best and offer all the FFA 's who frequent this board so regularly and make all of us Fat guys feel great some Photos I will actually try and make them somewhat cool
And Just to show you I don't take myself so seriously I even will try and recreate the Classic Seinfeld George Costanza boudoir shot so please be gentle on me and I will take what ever encouragement,criticism anyone has to offer So here goes..........<gulp> Well let's do this.....After several frustating hours I give up on trying to post them in this thread....But thanks to several great folks you can go to this link: http://new.photos.yahoo.com/bonnyjonbonny/photo/294928803682693759/2
And there you can see me in all my 390 lb glory plus Snacks to boot!!
I would love to hear back from anyone good bad or other
Thanks again to all the FFA's BBW's SSBBW's and their supporters!!! Well I gotta get ready to try and go I just keep thinking of that buffett.... Steve
