Hey there. Well, these past few days have been their own kind of -hell.- Ive been fighting an invisible enemy, and losing, somewhat.. thats for sure. Lets start with this post here, that explains it well: http://www.dimensionsmagazine.com/forums/showpost.php?p=1780879&postcount=7038
Now, im en route to FL to see about my Job, Apartment (its not an apartment, its a garage that is partitioned of to split my half from a 1953 Mercury "Monterey" idk that looks like this and belongs to the man that owns the house, http://www.seriouswheels.com/pics-1950-1959/1953-Mercury-Monterey-white-red-flame-le.jpg) are even still there, or dont exist. Im in South Carolina in confy AC for about 8 hours before we hit the road again, i was happy to post, i have my Mifi and laptop. What i DONT have is my sanity.
Now, i reflect on this year of 2011 and i know that ive kind of struck out at certain things. I truly, truly do not yet understand how deeply and thoroughly Aspergers is a part of me. I want to thank Shosh soo much for the words of encouragement on her wall, because sometimes when i interact with people, i treat it like COMBAT!! Now, WHY do i do that. WHY!!!
Now, i thank those who poitn out that "Aspergers is not you, its something YOU have, it doesnt have you." But i havent slept right the past three days!!! .. When i reflect on some that have gotten their act together (as far asi know,) I sometimes sit and think and wonder, "Hmmm. Perhaps with this person, it was me and not them that made it over before it started." So, in situations like that, in the game of meeting people that i began to treat like Duke Nukem 3D lol.. What do i do?
(Im really fighting this hard, folks. TY. I appreciate any insight, these drinks arent working.)
Now, im en route to FL to see about my Job, Apartment (its not an apartment, its a garage that is partitioned of to split my half from a 1953 Mercury "Monterey" idk that looks like this and belongs to the man that owns the house, http://www.seriouswheels.com/pics-1950-1959/1953-Mercury-Monterey-white-red-flame-le.jpg) are even still there, or dont exist. Im in South Carolina in confy AC for about 8 hours before we hit the road again, i was happy to post, i have my Mifi and laptop. What i DONT have is my sanity.
Now, i reflect on this year of 2011 and i know that ive kind of struck out at certain things. I truly, truly do not yet understand how deeply and thoroughly Aspergers is a part of me. I want to thank Shosh soo much for the words of encouragement on her wall, because sometimes when i interact with people, i treat it like COMBAT!! Now, WHY do i do that. WHY!!!
Now, i thank those who poitn out that "Aspergers is not you, its something YOU have, it doesnt have you." But i havent slept right the past three days!!! .. When i reflect on some that have gotten their act together (as far asi know,) I sometimes sit and think and wonder, "Hmmm. Perhaps with this person, it was me and not them that made it over before it started." So, in situations like that, in the game of meeting people that i began to treat like Duke Nukem 3D lol.. What do i do?
(Im really fighting this hard, folks. TY. I appreciate any insight, these drinks arent working.)
