Today when I was window shopping, I saw a stunning looking girl.
She was a SSBBW. I would say she was bigger than me, about 5 ft 10. Dressed beautifully, very unique style with a stunning face and lovely hair.
I found myself staring at her, not only because she was beautiful but because I often do look when I see other big girls. To compare, check out their clothes etc.
Anyhoo, as I was staring at her, all the time thinking I was being subtle, she noticed me.
And she looked sad. Hurt even. As if she is so used to people staring at her and not for positive reasons. She looked angry. As if to say "what are you looking at".
I realise it was rude to stare, I didn't really even realise I was doing it. But I really wish I had had the guts to go over and speak to her, just to say yes I was staring. But because I think you are a beautiful girl. I wish I had said it. I feel guilty as I think I made her feel bad about herself. I wish I had told her I was looking at her out of admiration and nothing else.
Often I get stared at and I always assume the worst. They're laughing at my hair, my weight, my piercings, anything. If someone approached me and told me they thought I looked cool it would make my day. I really wish I had told her how pretty she was, instead of letting her walk off thinking she was being mocked.
She was a SSBBW. I would say she was bigger than me, about 5 ft 10. Dressed beautifully, very unique style with a stunning face and lovely hair.
I found myself staring at her, not only because she was beautiful but because I often do look when I see other big girls. To compare, check out their clothes etc.
Anyhoo, as I was staring at her, all the time thinking I was being subtle, she noticed me.
And she looked sad. Hurt even. As if she is so used to people staring at her and not for positive reasons. She looked angry. As if to say "what are you looking at".
I realise it was rude to stare, I didn't really even realise I was doing it. But I really wish I had had the guts to go over and speak to her, just to say yes I was staring. But because I think you are a beautiful girl. I wish I had said it. I feel guilty as I think I made her feel bad about herself. I wish I had told her I was looking at her out of admiration and nothing else.
Often I get stared at and I always assume the worst. They're laughing at my hair, my weight, my piercings, anything. If someone approached me and told me they thought I looked cool it would make my day. I really wish I had told her how pretty she was, instead of letting her walk off thinking she was being mocked.
