Sometimes life just pushes too hard.

[Sandie_Zitkus]

This summer has been the worst I can remember in a long time. Family members dying, friends family members dying, my freakin gall bladder making me miserable for 2 months now - finding out I have the beginning stages of CHF and sleep apnea - my best friend calling me to tell me goodbye because she is going to kill herself and the stress of trying to remain calm among the chaos.

*deeeeeeep breath*

I've had enough. I can't be there for anyone else. I need to be here for me. I'm concerned about my health. Hey family and friends for the first time in my life *I* need someone to be a rock for *ME*. Huh imagine that. I have no more to give. If you can't support me then at least ignore me because I have nothing for you.. I need it all for me.

I cannot save anyone - save yourself.

I know I've been a bitch lately but I'm completely overwhelmed.

I kinda feel better now but I still want to crawl off into a corner and curl up in a ball and cry till it's all over.

I can't do anymore. I just can't

 

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