BeautifulPoeticDisaster
Well-Known Member
The title of this thread may be a little off. I'm sorry I didn't know what else to say, but I really need to talk about this. The recent events have put my head in a spin that won't quit.
How is it that I am still here, breathing a living when so many others have passed on. People who were probably nicer than me, had more friends than me, as far as I am aware, healthy as me.
It is realllllly tripping me out.
I sorta feel like I'm caught in a death trap. Stay this size and die or have WLS and die. Diet do not work so it is one of the above options. What do I do? I'm only 30. Too young to die.
How does this happen? How do good people die? Why couldn't the hospital help her or those before her?????
I'm sorry if this comes across wrong. I haven't had to deal with death much in my life....so with each death it gets closer and closer. Lexi, Cinda and now Cindy. (I hope all of them are resting in peace in fat girl heaven)
My heart is bleeding out of sorrow and out of fear.
How is it that I am still here, breathing a living when so many others have passed on. People who were probably nicer than me, had more friends than me, as far as I am aware, healthy as me.
It is realllllly tripping me out.
I sorta feel like I'm caught in a death trap. Stay this size and die or have WLS and die. Diet do not work so it is one of the above options. What do I do? I'm only 30. Too young to die.
How does this happen? How do good people die? Why couldn't the hospital help her or those before her?????
I'm sorry if this comes across wrong. I haven't had to deal with death much in my life....so with each death it gets closer and closer. Lexi, Cinda and now Cindy. (I hope all of them are resting in peace in fat girl heaven)
My heart is bleeding out of sorrow and out of fear.
