Ok, so that's a kooky question, but what I mean is this: I've read lots of "I realized I was an FA when..." stories here and elsewhere over the years, but I've read far fewer: this is how/when/why I got fat stories (forgive me if they've been around and I've missed them)! Maybe the thread will turn out to be interesting.
As far as I'm concerned, it must've been around puberty. I remember developing (boobs, etc.) and gaining a bit of weight, but without the corresponding bump in height (I'm still waiting for that, btw. Is it likely I'll have a growth spurt in my 30s??). I look back at photos of me when a few family members were calling me chubby and fat, and like many women, I can't believe how NOT fat I was (compared to me today). I don't ever really remember not liking what my body looked like, only not liking how others viewed it (negatively). I suppose that's still true today. That's one difficult part of self acceptance, I find--often, it seems like the only one accepting me IS me.
Oh, I'll add that I was always crap at team (and most individual) sports, and that stank. I did feel my body was a hindrance there. Not b/c I was fat necessarily but I just was not good at hitting a ball with a bat, etc. God, the torture of gym class! For many years, I wanted little to do with exercise/sports b/c of memories of gym class, but once I took matters into my own hands, I learned to rather enjoy working up a sweat.
And that sounded a lot dirtier than I meant it to, so I'll sign off and ask for input from others.
Jes
