Tad
Dimensions' loiterer
~BBW, Stuffing, ~SWG - Lonely wife in a distant land finds companionship in calories
Author's Note:This one just came to me as a piece, and I banged it out quickly. I'm sure a second draft would improve it, but most likely I would not get back to it for months, so I'm posting it as is.
I made it back to the hotel room without losing my temper. I was steaming though; even for Saudi Arabia I thought that this last restriction was ridiculous: female contractors working on this project could not go out for meals together unless each was accompanied by a male relative or an escort provided by our sponsor, because we could apparently not be trusted to behave in accordance with local standards.
I knew exactly what this was all about too, it was Weasel Boy making another power play to show his control over us. Never mind that he had a small fortune riding on our getting the program ready on schedule, it wouldnt do for any of us to get uppity, especially not the women.
I went into our suite in the hotel ready to complain to Peter, but I found the room empty.
Geez Peter, you better be back here before supper, I dont want to order room service! I yelled into the empty space. Then I noticed the novel that Id been reading, lying in the middle of the bed. I knew Id put it away in the bed side table the night before, so I was puzzled. Then I noticed that my Dilbert bookmark had been replaced by a scrap of paper.
Bloody hell Peter, now what I muttered, and looked at it in dread.
It was marked Things to do at the top, and included order room service for us for supper, Go for a run, and Talk with friends. At a corner in the bottom was doodled 14.
Thank you very much - not! Jerk! I thought, managing not to scream, because although the soundproofing was pretty good I didnt want to risk letting anyone know I was upset. But upset I certainly was: Room service did not need to be booked that far in advance, he did not run, and we had not friends around here to talk with. What the note was telling me was that he had taken off, and wasnt planning on coming back for 14 days.
I was not so much surprised as I was pissed. He was a journalist, and had come along with me on this project so that he could have lots of quiet time to work on the book of his experiences with Syrian smugglers working the Iraqi border. Hed finally been making some real progress, for lack of anything else to do. But I swear that man has ADHD or something, and the focus had been killing him, and hed been musing at trying to write a freelance piece.
I fabntasized that hed met some guy in the hotel gym that he was pretty sure was gay, and hed been thinking that the hidden gay sub-culture, in violently homophobic Saudi Arabia would make for a great piece, that he was sure he could freelance. Assuming he didnt get killed in the process, of course.
I was worried for him, as I always was when he went off on one of his foolish stunts. I was also furious at him, because this meant that I had to cover for him, and would not be leaving the hotel. No way was I going out without Peter, because Weasel Boy would probably choose to escort me himself, even if Id chosen to adapt full local female dress to hide my body from his leering eyes.
Also, I knew the room service reference was a hint that Id have to order for two, and disguise it so that it looked like two were actually eating here. I couldnt manufacture sightings of him of course, but he was normally in our suite except for a while each morning when hed absent himself to let the cleaning staff in. Id also have to muss up towels for two, muss around his clothes and put them in the laundry, and for that matter roll around in his bed at least most nights, to keep the pattern looking consistent.
Peter and I were still technically married, which was why Id wanted to bring him along with me. That wed been separated almost as long as wed been married didnt matter to local standards, it mattered only that he was my husband, and hence a suitable escort.
It was exactly this sort of stunt that had led to our separation in the first place, but Id thought maybe he was finally growing out of it. Which was part of why it was only most nights that he slept in a separate bed from me. He didnt have the same sort of enthusiasm in his love making that hed had when we were first together, but he still knew my body better than anyone else. Well, anyone else than me I suppose, although sometimes he surprised even me. Ill give this: he is a good observer and analyzer. The same talents that made him a fantastic reporter also helped to make him a great lover. It was just at being a husband that he was pretty much crap.
I flung off my various outer coverings until I was down to stretch pants and a t-shirtif nobody can see, I figured I might as well be comfortablethen threw myself down on the bed. I buried my face into a pile of pillows, then swore: Damn, damn, damn! Peter you fricking jerk! You still think that I should be the happy little wife, sitting at home waiting for you to finish whatever you are up to now! I swear you are almost as bad as the Saudis! Why did I think we could live together for three months peacefully? You are never growing up, damn you.
And then I cried. Running a project I try to be the tough-ass manager who cant be fazed, but sometimes I have to be human, and I was stuck in this gilded cage for the next two weeks, with no moral support, and more than that my secret hope that maybe we could work things out finally was shot to hell. I wailed, sobbed, cried, and cursed until I was spent.
Eventually I got myself back together, and called down for room service, numbly ordering what wed had the night before. When the knock came on the door I asked for it to be left outside, then through on the essential coverings before opening the door and wheeling in the cart. It was only then that I realized that steak was going to be hard to disguise. It wasnt like I could spread it around the plates or flush a bit down the toilets.
I looked at the plates, then grinned without any real humor. Well, looks like losing those twenty pounds wasnt enough to keep Peter by my side, and I dont have anything else to do, so what difference does it make.
For the rest of the evening I worked over the new Resourcing plans, while slowly packing away two entire steak dinners, including dessert. When I was done I was surprised at how good I felt. Good to get these plans finally sorted. That and maybe a protein high.
I was lying to myself and knew it, I felt good because I was stuffed, and better yet stuffed on naughty food.
Ever since Id been a young girl Id love sneaking food. From swiping a green bean while carrying them to the table to sneaking down to the basement freezer and scraping out a bit of ice cream from each tub, snuck food had always been irresistible. You might think Id been a fat kid, but not really. Kind of chunky, but athletic. Even as a teenager when I used to buy chocolate bars on the way home from high school Id been a starter on the field hockey team.
It had only been in college, when I discovered the joys of late night pizza runs, that Id gotten plump. In my frosh year Id packed on thirty pounds after learning how much stuffing myself on late night pizza felt great. Id started fighting those urges after that, and had done pretty well until started dating Peter in my final year. Wed met in the International Affairs club, and before we officially started dating wed started going out for pizza and beer after meetings, and debating long into the night. When we started going out it was more of the same, except even more often. Peter never showed the effects, but he had some sort of freaky metabolism that burned everything off. He was always hungry, and eating with him somehow had that same allure of snuck food, and I could never resist.
Wed married right after graduation, by which time I was already a size 16. By the time he went off on his first big adventure, investigating the Coyotes who smuggle Mexicans across the US border, I was by then a size 18. Without his influence I managed to get down to a fourteen by the time hed made it back, but by then things were falling apart. I wanted him with me, he wanted to be out in the field. He never could seem to get that I wasnt so much worried about his fidelity or whether he loved me, but with the companionship.
When he went off again, to look into the traffic of parts from stolen cars, I gave up and changed the locks. We been together a few times since then. He was still the same brilliant, inquisitive guy who was fluently quadralingual and could get by in three more languages, and who never seemed to mind my pudgy body, and I couldnt help falling in love with him over and over again. Each time hed spark my mind, my libido, and my appetite. We argue, debate, eat, and sometimes wed end up in bed. If it lasted for long Id put on weight, and his latest article would get a lot tighter for my input. Then wed break up again, Id throw myself back into work and working out, and that was all until the next time.
Now though, this was the first time Id really had a secret pig out without Peter since before wed been going out. I rubbed my comfortably full stomach and gave a chuckle Look at what you are missing, boyo.
Truth was I knew Peter loved seeing me eat, maybe even more seeing me over eat. It was not just food, he loved seeing me give in to temptation and indulgence, whether that was inviting him back into my life or spending a lazy Saturday on the couch reading the newspaper, Id long realized that something about me indulging myself turned him on. Id challenged him on it once, suggesting that what he wanted was for me to be a 1950s housewife, sitting at home and eating bon-bons.
Hed just given me a cheeky smile and suggested that the sort of lingerie he pictured me wearing while I was doing that would have shocked the folks in the 50s, but hed never denied it. It wasnt that he didnt want me to think, he loved my mind, but to him love seemed to mean making me some sort of pampered pet.
Going with my feelings, I put on the lace teddy Id brought with me for nights when lust over-ruled good judgment, pulled out a more reliable companion than Peter, and did my best to convince myself I didnt miss him. After which I slept surprisingly soundly.
The next morning I was in a fey mood. I knew these were dangerous, but Id learned that when these came there was no fighting them. I ordered two substantial breakfasts and shoveled them both down, nude except for a towel worn like a bib. That morning the expected complaints about the new Resourcing schedule barely bothered me, and something of my mood must have been apparent because nobody was willing to fight me too hard.
I ordered two lunches to the room and went back to my room to eat. After that I was feeling both sleepy and horny, but subjected myself to the afternoon meetings. We finally got agreement on the need for an automated system to gather most of the metrics, to prevent fiddling with numbers, and I went back to the room all pumped up.
I was really missing Peter, and in his absence wished I could at least have a drink, but given that neither was possible I made sure that each dinner that I ordered was accompanied by a decadent dessert. By the time I finished that decadent spread my stomach looked stretched out and felt almost painfully full. I eased the sensation in the spa bath, letting jets of hot water and wandering fingers combine to leave me feeling relaxed and sleepy. I did find that I had to be careful how I lay, in order not to put pressure on my stomach, but that just left me feeling almost turned on again.
Id managed to bury that memory, from that first year in college, of lying on my bed with my stomach aching from eating so much, and other parts of me aching from being so turned on. When Id thought about it at all Id told myself it had just been the thrill of breaking rules. But now, I was breaking normal rules of eating again, but the thrill didnt feel like rule breaking. It felt more like the thrill from going for something. I fell asleep before I figured it out further.
Author's Note:This one just came to me as a piece, and I banged it out quickly. I'm sure a second draft would improve it, but most likely I would not get back to it for months, so I'm posting it as is.
Arabian Nights
by EDX
by EDX
I made it back to the hotel room without losing my temper. I was steaming though; even for Saudi Arabia I thought that this last restriction was ridiculous: female contractors working on this project could not go out for meals together unless each was accompanied by a male relative or an escort provided by our sponsor, because we could apparently not be trusted to behave in accordance with local standards.
I knew exactly what this was all about too, it was Weasel Boy making another power play to show his control over us. Never mind that he had a small fortune riding on our getting the program ready on schedule, it wouldnt do for any of us to get uppity, especially not the women.
I went into our suite in the hotel ready to complain to Peter, but I found the room empty.
Geez Peter, you better be back here before supper, I dont want to order room service! I yelled into the empty space. Then I noticed the novel that Id been reading, lying in the middle of the bed. I knew Id put it away in the bed side table the night before, so I was puzzled. Then I noticed that my Dilbert bookmark had been replaced by a scrap of paper.
Bloody hell Peter, now what I muttered, and looked at it in dread.
It was marked Things to do at the top, and included order room service for us for supper, Go for a run, and Talk with friends. At a corner in the bottom was doodled 14.
Thank you very much - not! Jerk! I thought, managing not to scream, because although the soundproofing was pretty good I didnt want to risk letting anyone know I was upset. But upset I certainly was: Room service did not need to be booked that far in advance, he did not run, and we had not friends around here to talk with. What the note was telling me was that he had taken off, and wasnt planning on coming back for 14 days.
I was not so much surprised as I was pissed. He was a journalist, and had come along with me on this project so that he could have lots of quiet time to work on the book of his experiences with Syrian smugglers working the Iraqi border. Hed finally been making some real progress, for lack of anything else to do. But I swear that man has ADHD or something, and the focus had been killing him, and hed been musing at trying to write a freelance piece.
I fabntasized that hed met some guy in the hotel gym that he was pretty sure was gay, and hed been thinking that the hidden gay sub-culture, in violently homophobic Saudi Arabia would make for a great piece, that he was sure he could freelance. Assuming he didnt get killed in the process, of course.
I was worried for him, as I always was when he went off on one of his foolish stunts. I was also furious at him, because this meant that I had to cover for him, and would not be leaving the hotel. No way was I going out without Peter, because Weasel Boy would probably choose to escort me himself, even if Id chosen to adapt full local female dress to hide my body from his leering eyes.
Also, I knew the room service reference was a hint that Id have to order for two, and disguise it so that it looked like two were actually eating here. I couldnt manufacture sightings of him of course, but he was normally in our suite except for a while each morning when hed absent himself to let the cleaning staff in. Id also have to muss up towels for two, muss around his clothes and put them in the laundry, and for that matter roll around in his bed at least most nights, to keep the pattern looking consistent.
Peter and I were still technically married, which was why Id wanted to bring him along with me. That wed been separated almost as long as wed been married didnt matter to local standards, it mattered only that he was my husband, and hence a suitable escort.
It was exactly this sort of stunt that had led to our separation in the first place, but Id thought maybe he was finally growing out of it. Which was part of why it was only most nights that he slept in a separate bed from me. He didnt have the same sort of enthusiasm in his love making that hed had when we were first together, but he still knew my body better than anyone else. Well, anyone else than me I suppose, although sometimes he surprised even me. Ill give this: he is a good observer and analyzer. The same talents that made him a fantastic reporter also helped to make him a great lover. It was just at being a husband that he was pretty much crap.
I flung off my various outer coverings until I was down to stretch pants and a t-shirtif nobody can see, I figured I might as well be comfortablethen threw myself down on the bed. I buried my face into a pile of pillows, then swore: Damn, damn, damn! Peter you fricking jerk! You still think that I should be the happy little wife, sitting at home waiting for you to finish whatever you are up to now! I swear you are almost as bad as the Saudis! Why did I think we could live together for three months peacefully? You are never growing up, damn you.
And then I cried. Running a project I try to be the tough-ass manager who cant be fazed, but sometimes I have to be human, and I was stuck in this gilded cage for the next two weeks, with no moral support, and more than that my secret hope that maybe we could work things out finally was shot to hell. I wailed, sobbed, cried, and cursed until I was spent.
Eventually I got myself back together, and called down for room service, numbly ordering what wed had the night before. When the knock came on the door I asked for it to be left outside, then through on the essential coverings before opening the door and wheeling in the cart. It was only then that I realized that steak was going to be hard to disguise. It wasnt like I could spread it around the plates or flush a bit down the toilets.
I looked at the plates, then grinned without any real humor. Well, looks like losing those twenty pounds wasnt enough to keep Peter by my side, and I dont have anything else to do, so what difference does it make.
For the rest of the evening I worked over the new Resourcing plans, while slowly packing away two entire steak dinners, including dessert. When I was done I was surprised at how good I felt. Good to get these plans finally sorted. That and maybe a protein high.
I was lying to myself and knew it, I felt good because I was stuffed, and better yet stuffed on naughty food.
Ever since Id been a young girl Id love sneaking food. From swiping a green bean while carrying them to the table to sneaking down to the basement freezer and scraping out a bit of ice cream from each tub, snuck food had always been irresistible. You might think Id been a fat kid, but not really. Kind of chunky, but athletic. Even as a teenager when I used to buy chocolate bars on the way home from high school Id been a starter on the field hockey team.
It had only been in college, when I discovered the joys of late night pizza runs, that Id gotten plump. In my frosh year Id packed on thirty pounds after learning how much stuffing myself on late night pizza felt great. Id started fighting those urges after that, and had done pretty well until started dating Peter in my final year. Wed met in the International Affairs club, and before we officially started dating wed started going out for pizza and beer after meetings, and debating long into the night. When we started going out it was more of the same, except even more often. Peter never showed the effects, but he had some sort of freaky metabolism that burned everything off. He was always hungry, and eating with him somehow had that same allure of snuck food, and I could never resist.
Wed married right after graduation, by which time I was already a size 16. By the time he went off on his first big adventure, investigating the Coyotes who smuggle Mexicans across the US border, I was by then a size 18. Without his influence I managed to get down to a fourteen by the time hed made it back, but by then things were falling apart. I wanted him with me, he wanted to be out in the field. He never could seem to get that I wasnt so much worried about his fidelity or whether he loved me, but with the companionship.
When he went off again, to look into the traffic of parts from stolen cars, I gave up and changed the locks. We been together a few times since then. He was still the same brilliant, inquisitive guy who was fluently quadralingual and could get by in three more languages, and who never seemed to mind my pudgy body, and I couldnt help falling in love with him over and over again. Each time hed spark my mind, my libido, and my appetite. We argue, debate, eat, and sometimes wed end up in bed. If it lasted for long Id put on weight, and his latest article would get a lot tighter for my input. Then wed break up again, Id throw myself back into work and working out, and that was all until the next time.
Now though, this was the first time Id really had a secret pig out without Peter since before wed been going out. I rubbed my comfortably full stomach and gave a chuckle Look at what you are missing, boyo.
Truth was I knew Peter loved seeing me eat, maybe even more seeing me over eat. It was not just food, he loved seeing me give in to temptation and indulgence, whether that was inviting him back into my life or spending a lazy Saturday on the couch reading the newspaper, Id long realized that something about me indulging myself turned him on. Id challenged him on it once, suggesting that what he wanted was for me to be a 1950s housewife, sitting at home and eating bon-bons.
Hed just given me a cheeky smile and suggested that the sort of lingerie he pictured me wearing while I was doing that would have shocked the folks in the 50s, but hed never denied it. It wasnt that he didnt want me to think, he loved my mind, but to him love seemed to mean making me some sort of pampered pet.
Going with my feelings, I put on the lace teddy Id brought with me for nights when lust over-ruled good judgment, pulled out a more reliable companion than Peter, and did my best to convince myself I didnt miss him. After which I slept surprisingly soundly.
The next morning I was in a fey mood. I knew these were dangerous, but Id learned that when these came there was no fighting them. I ordered two substantial breakfasts and shoveled them both down, nude except for a towel worn like a bib. That morning the expected complaints about the new Resourcing schedule barely bothered me, and something of my mood must have been apparent because nobody was willing to fight me too hard.
I ordered two lunches to the room and went back to my room to eat. After that I was feeling both sleepy and horny, but subjected myself to the afternoon meetings. We finally got agreement on the need for an automated system to gather most of the metrics, to prevent fiddling with numbers, and I went back to the room all pumped up.
I was really missing Peter, and in his absence wished I could at least have a drink, but given that neither was possible I made sure that each dinner that I ordered was accompanied by a decadent dessert. By the time I finished that decadent spread my stomach looked stretched out and felt almost painfully full. I eased the sensation in the spa bath, letting jets of hot water and wandering fingers combine to leave me feeling relaxed and sleepy. I did find that I had to be careful how I lay, in order not to put pressure on my stomach, but that just left me feeling almost turned on again.
Id managed to bury that memory, from that first year in college, of lying on my bed with my stomach aching from eating so much, and other parts of me aching from being so turned on. When Id thought about it at all Id told myself it had just been the thrill of breaking rules. But now, I was breaking normal rules of eating again, but the thrill didnt feel like rule breaking. It felt more like the thrill from going for something. I fell asleep before I figured it out further.