My sister used to make me feel like I should be ashamed that I let myself get fat. She would always tell me that it was just being lazy and self indulgent to allow yourself to become fat. She also would equate it to being slovenly.
I really feel that she viewed me as being unintelligent simply due to my weight.
My sister is a type A, corporate, high end, high achiever, perfectionist etc.
I know that she was embarrased to be seen with me in the past, and she would not invite me to her home very often.
This really effected my self esteem greatly in the past, and it led me to think that she was ashamed of me, and that maybe I should be ashamed of myself because of my obesity.
It was a very deep seated feeling, and one that I still wrestle with and find hard to shake.
Maybe she thought I was defective as a person also? I think about it a lot. It has not left me, even though I have lost the weight.
Have you ever had a family member make you feel like you should feel ashamed because of your fat?
Do you feel ashamed of your fat sometimes?
Was I slovenly? Was I lazy? Was I stupid? Was I self indulgent?
I do not think so, but I have such feelings of inadequacy because of how she made me feel.
She often praises my weight loss now, and I can tell she approves of me more now than she did before.
I do love her, but she has hurt me somewhat, and I do not know if I can forget it.
I will try.
I really feel that she viewed me as being unintelligent simply due to my weight.
My sister is a type A, corporate, high end, high achiever, perfectionist etc.
I know that she was embarrased to be seen with me in the past, and she would not invite me to her home very often.
This really effected my self esteem greatly in the past, and it led me to think that she was ashamed of me, and that maybe I should be ashamed of myself because of my obesity.
It was a very deep seated feeling, and one that I still wrestle with and find hard to shake.
Maybe she thought I was defective as a person also? I think about it a lot. It has not left me, even though I have lost the weight.
Have you ever had a family member make you feel like you should feel ashamed because of your fat?
Do you feel ashamed of your fat sometimes?
Was I slovenly? Was I lazy? Was I stupid? Was I self indulgent?
I do not think so, but I have such feelings of inadequacy because of how she made me feel.
She often praises my weight loss now, and I can tell she approves of me more now than she did before.
I do love her, but she has hurt me somewhat, and I do not know if I can forget it.
I will try.
