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So, I find myself at school this year as a sophomore, and I've been kind of gaining off and on (mostly middling) for many years now. With the exception of senior year of high school when I was about 170, I've been hovering around 190-200 since '02, and I'm currently at the higher end of that right now. I'd thought for months (all summer, actually) that I'd diet and get down to about 170 again, for social reasons I guess. Instead, I put on ten pounds and I show up on campus the heaviest I'd been since 2005. To my surprise, after I was settled, I discovered that I was actually almost kind of comfortable with being that size and not losing any weight. You'd think a guy who'd tried to gain for years would've had more of those moments, but you'd think wrong.
So, I've been thinking about keeping the train going and maybe heading to around 230, maybe more. And I'm excited about it. But I've made these kinds of plans a million times before, and stopped them because I chickened out, or was interrupted by some life event, or a million other excuses. I think I'd be happy fat, but I wasn't unhappy thin, though either way it wasn't like I was Don Juan or anything (tho I have a girlfriend now, who seems ambivalent about what size I am). It's just that after spending so much time at a middle ground that I haven't been permanently pleased with staying at for a long while, I'm eager for change, I guess.
Would making a decision to gain at this point (while I'm young and still in a heavily-social school place) be a bad idea? Because while I like the idea of being fat, I can't exactly picture the reality in my head because I've never gone any farther than I where I am before. It doesn't help that I don't know anyone personally who's actually put on the Frosh 15, but that really shouldn't impact what I do. I know this is a personal thing that only I can decide myself in the end, but are there any college gainers who could lend me some much-needed advice on what to do now, or how they handled these kinds of internal questions?
So, I've been thinking about keeping the train going and maybe heading to around 230, maybe more. And I'm excited about it. But I've made these kinds of plans a million times before, and stopped them because I chickened out, or was interrupted by some life event, or a million other excuses. I think I'd be happy fat, but I wasn't unhappy thin, though either way it wasn't like I was Don Juan or anything (tho I have a girlfriend now, who seems ambivalent about what size I am). It's just that after spending so much time at a middle ground that I haven't been permanently pleased with staying at for a long while, I'm eager for change, I guess.
Would making a decision to gain at this point (while I'm young and still in a heavily-social school place) be a bad idea? Because while I like the idea of being fat, I can't exactly picture the reality in my head because I've never gone any farther than I where I am before. It doesn't help that I don't know anyone personally who's actually put on the Frosh 15, but that really shouldn't impact what I do. I know this is a personal thing that only I can decide myself in the end, but are there any college gainers who could lend me some much-needed advice on what to do now, or how they handled these kinds of internal questions?
