Food Addiction + Feederism

[jellybellyrolls]

I posted this in the Feedism thread, but now I'm beginning to get more worried.

Here's what I posted:

I'm really into the idea of myself gaining weight though I have never fully gone through with it. I'll often go through short phases where I will over indulge slightly as a turn on, but then I'll get bored and health conscious.

Recently though, for some odd reason, I managed to convince myself I was addicted to food and started living the addiction. I guess I found the addiction to food and emotional eating to be pretty erotic because now I'm starting to actually experience symptoms of it. I don't think it's too bad an eating disorder right now, though I do always feel like eating which I never did before and feedism has just reinforced these habits.

For the first time in my life I've actually gained fat and noticed it, which makes me seriously worried and turns me on like crazy.

I've actually gained more weight since then and my eating habits are getting WAY out of control. My friend who's always been very fat even laughed and commented saying, "wow you've turned into a total fat kid." after he saw me munching on a bunch of food. I honestly don't want to be fat at this time in my life, but I find my weight gain to be insanely erotic which is encouraging me to worsen my condition.

I'm literally self destructive and can't stop it

 

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