Hi everyone,
I'm sort of new here, having lurked a bit in the past but now having inadvertantly gained almost 40 pounds in the last three years after years of being diligent about my diet, exercise, etc. (I'm guessing I'm about 174 right now--haven't weighed myself this week--I'm a bit scared to.) I find it quite exciting, but I realize I can only check this site and post if I have a few drinks in me (as I do now). Any advice on how to accept my growing form and enjoy it without alcohol? During the day, when I have to go to work, etc. and be sober and responsible, I look in the mirror, and I can definitely see that I've gone from size 10 to size 12 to size 14 and I am dismayed that other people are probably noticing too. Now my 14's cut into my waist and leave a bulge above them and I'll need 16's soon. Unfortunately, my breasts have hardly grown at all!
In any case, my big problem is shame (which is why the alcohol works). And I'm afraid of ridicule, afraid of my family (the biggest bunch of fat haters you can can imagine!) and afraid that my collegues are talking about me behind my back.
I'm going to post this, and then go get another vodka/tonic!
Thanks all. I'm glad you're here and willing to be real.
Genie
I'm sort of new here, having lurked a bit in the past but now having inadvertantly gained almost 40 pounds in the last three years after years of being diligent about my diet, exercise, etc. (I'm guessing I'm about 174 right now--haven't weighed myself this week--I'm a bit scared to.) I find it quite exciting, but I realize I can only check this site and post if I have a few drinks in me (as I do now). Any advice on how to accept my growing form and enjoy it without alcohol? During the day, when I have to go to work, etc. and be sober and responsible, I look in the mirror, and I can definitely see that I've gone from size 10 to size 12 to size 14 and I am dismayed that other people are probably noticing too. Now my 14's cut into my waist and leave a bulge above them and I'll need 16's soon. Unfortunately, my breasts have hardly grown at all!
In any case, my big problem is shame (which is why the alcohol works). And I'm afraid of ridicule, afraid of my family (the biggest bunch of fat haters you can can imagine!) and afraid that my collegues are talking about me behind my back.
I'm going to post this, and then go get another vodka/tonic!
Thanks all. I'm glad you're here and willing to be real.
Genie
