thedarkeststar
Member
I just wanted to introduce myself.
I am a 23 -24 in aug.- year old, single mom, and I am , I guess, a bbw. I say I guess because I generally stick to "cute". I am a stay at home mom for the moment, trying to gain financial independence so I can finish a degree in Sociology and go on to law school. I live in east texas in a rural town.
I have been overweight most of my life and it has, for the most part, been hell. I was born near New Orleans and was actually underweight until my doctor put me on iron supplements and god knows what else and fatally screwed up my metabolism. I have been almost steadily gaining since then.
We moved here when I was eight, and that was when I found out I was fat. My second grade teacher made us all weigh ourselves in class, and she's the one that told me. It was a bad start and just kept going. I say this and few people believe me, but there are very few overweight people in this area. So I was singled out all through school and suffered because of it. I was sure I would never meet anyone who could find me attractive and would die alone, etc. So I turned to the internet and computers and have been hooked since junior high. Both of my relationships started there. I am very shy in person because I fear constant rejection.
I still have not met a man in real life who has been attracted to me, come on to me, whatever. The rest of my family is all naturally slender as are most of my friends. My daughter's father left me for a skinny chick and I had to deal with Post Partum Depression as well as weight gain after the birth by my self. I am on anti-depressents when I keep the prescription current and have basically become a hermit because I just feel so out of place here. All of this has restricted my naturally cute and witty self and I am a very miserable fat person.
I do not want to be skinny; I want to be back at the curvy yet happy weight I was right after the birth - about 230. Currently I am around 290.
I was delighted when I found the forum. I would love to be at the point most of you are, where I love myself and respect my body as much as I want someone of the opposite sex to. Hopefully you gals (and guys) will rub off on me!
I am a 23 -24 in aug.- year old, single mom, and I am , I guess, a bbw. I say I guess because I generally stick to "cute". I am a stay at home mom for the moment, trying to gain financial independence so I can finish a degree in Sociology and go on to law school. I live in east texas in a rural town.
I have been overweight most of my life and it has, for the most part, been hell. I was born near New Orleans and was actually underweight until my doctor put me on iron supplements and god knows what else and fatally screwed up my metabolism. I have been almost steadily gaining since then.
We moved here when I was eight, and that was when I found out I was fat. My second grade teacher made us all weigh ourselves in class, and she's the one that told me. It was a bad start and just kept going. I say this and few people believe me, but there are very few overweight people in this area. So I was singled out all through school and suffered because of it. I was sure I would never meet anyone who could find me attractive and would die alone, etc. So I turned to the internet and computers and have been hooked since junior high. Both of my relationships started there. I am very shy in person because I fear constant rejection.
I still have not met a man in real life who has been attracted to me, come on to me, whatever. The rest of my family is all naturally slender as are most of my friends. My daughter's father left me for a skinny chick and I had to deal with Post Partum Depression as well as weight gain after the birth by my self. I am on anti-depressents when I keep the prescription current and have basically become a hermit because I just feel so out of place here. All of this has restricted my naturally cute and witty self and I am a very miserable fat person.
I do not want to be skinny; I want to be back at the curvy yet happy weight I was right after the birth - about 230. Currently I am around 290.
I was delighted when I found the forum. I would love to be at the point most of you are, where I love myself and respect my body as much as I want someone of the opposite sex to. Hopefully you gals (and guys) will rub off on me!
