Flutterby68
My Cups Runneth Over
In 2002, I became a nude model. A friend of mine was doing something called "the Mask Project" where he took nude photos in certain poses, all of women .... all different shapes, sizes, colors, ages. He had us slick our hair back and put on various masks so nobody could tell who each photo was depicting. (identifying marks and tattoos were edited out) He took about a dozen different photos, some in color and some in black and white, of a total of about 50 women. The women ranged in age from 19 to 68, from several different racial groups including mixed race, various haircolors, and various body types from anorexic to over 400 lbs. He wanted to show the beauty that is women, that has nothing to do with individuality and everything to do with just being naked in front of the camera.
I am completely self conscious in front of a camera, and always have been regardless of my body size. But I noticed that with the mask on, I felt FINE in front of the camera. I thought that because nobody would KNOW it was me in the picture, my anonymity was assured and that mattered to me. After this time, I started going to nudist camps, one in particular.
It seemed intensely freeing to me to be comfortable in my own skin. Of course, I was single at that time.
As time went on, I became more modest to the point where I don't go to nudist resorts anymore .... but that is simply because I put more VALUE on my body and with whom I share it. I am special, and I only show myself to someone special.
Have you had specific experiences with nudity and body size that changed your self image?
I am completely self conscious in front of a camera, and always have been regardless of my body size. But I noticed that with the mask on, I felt FINE in front of the camera. I thought that because nobody would KNOW it was me in the picture, my anonymity was assured and that mattered to me. After this time, I started going to nudist camps, one in particular.
It seemed intensely freeing to me to be comfortable in my own skin. Of course, I was single at that time.
As time went on, I became more modest to the point where I don't go to nudist resorts anymore .... but that is simply because I put more VALUE on my body and with whom I share it. I am special, and I only show myself to someone special.
Have you had specific experiences with nudity and body size that changed your self image?
