Seeking support and guidance

[KendraLee]

Hi everyone, I've just recently discovered Dims and I am posting a new thread instead of introducing myself through the introduction forum because I am in need of support and guidance from people who I know should understand where I'm coming from. I'm 275 lbs and usually very comfortable with my body and until recently I have only been with men who would not be considered FA's. Some of these men were special and brought meaning to my life but a few I would just erase from my mind if life were that simple. Last summer and throughout the year I had been with my first FA. It was amazing to be with someone who really seemed to appreciate and desire all of me, so probably because of this I fell for him quick and hard. Unfortunetly that was the only amazing thing about our relationship. He ended up being a cold, distant, manipulative, lying, vain, mentally abusive person. He's made me feel worse about myself than anyone else has in a very long time. Its hard for me to feel like this because I'm usually a very confident person. I've been having a really hard time getting over this person and this experience and I still long to see this person even knowing all the negative sides to him. Anyway, I'm kind of at a loss as to where to turn and how to move forward. So any words of advice and encouragement or even just sharing your own bad experience and how you got over it, from anyone who understands what I'm going through will be appreciated.

 

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