KFD
I am Ironman
The "compliment" of a woman of size being called a fat tub of lard really got the gears turning in my head as to what an FA really is...
I have the wonderful gift of swiftly stuffing my foot into my mouth, so I am going to try not to piss anyone off. I look around here, and at the BBW culture, and I see these congruent conditions in a Fat Admirer. Some of these include a disregard for outward appearances, cultural background, possibly social ineptitude, low self esteem, or an Oedipal admiration, some type of foundation early in life that set the course of a young man's journey throughout the entirety of his existence. Maybe its the feeling of security, like a nuturing sensation a small child has with a much larger mother...
Call me arrogant, or whatever you want, but I have never really seen an FA that hasn't satisfied those conditions, except for myself. Well, who would know really about myself more than me, right?
And cue my next point. I was talking to Linda (mostly known in these circles as Destiny) the other day, and she was telling me that she was talking to an FA who told her she was 'Beautiful on the inside'.
REALLY?
You are telling me that you are immersing yourself in the BBW culture, and that is where you find true beauty, on the inside!? Now, don't get things backward- I am in no way saying that the lovely Destiny has this hideous ugly soul, she is sweetheart, but you don't go the butcher shop for seasoning alone!
Now, something else that planted the seed for my rambling. The New Jersey Bash thread. I look at the women dressed up, and man oh man! I am not digging what I am seeing because of anything else other than you girls are beautiful! BigBeautifulMe, is a prime example. I don't mean to dime her out (well, yes I do), but wow. When I see those pictures of her, I see the very essence of femininity! Granted I am not exclusionary, just to her, or to the definition of BBW in general. I love my bikini-clad babes, what straight guy doesn't? I find a girl, like BigBeautifulMe or Juicy Jacqulyn (which in the NJ bash thread made me say WHO IS THAT BEAUTIFUL BABE!?) the very essence of what a female should be.
Something that really piques my interest, is WHY DO I LOVE WHAT I LOVE? Ever since I was a toddler, I have gravitated towards large women in public places. This is where normally one would think that would be Oedipal, but my mother, and all the important female figures in my early life were all tiny. When my grandfather took me to public places, he would count fat girls with me. He wasn't an FA at all whatsoever. I have drawings from when I was younger of fat women. This was LOOOONNNNNNGGGGG before the onslaught of puberty. I have no logical explanation as to why (insert name in what I should have posted in the not-so anonymous thread) is what I perceive to be a strikingly beautiful woman. Again, I see some FAs that have this mindset of 'you are fat, you will do'. I do have qualities I look for, just like the next guy. Please don't bash me here for that quote! One of my best friends is gay. He is respectful of my sexuality, and I am his. He is one of the very few people that I consider 'pure of heart'. One of the most poignant statements that his mother made about him is that 'he is what he is'. Sure, we could sit here all day and postulate why he chooses the same sex, brain chemistry, trauma in his life, but at the end of the day, his mother's eloquently simple quote rings true. I believe it does for me as well.
Now, something else I notice- is one considered an 'fa' because of a lack of options? Go in any BBW chatroom (I have only been in Destiny's so maybe one website isn't an accurate barometer for FA sentiment), I see these idiots, for lack of a better term, say some of the most obtuse, oddball things and otherwise socially unacceptable things. Are these guys FAs because they have had luck with some insecure female who viewed the term bbw as a prejorative, and themselves found some strange asylum in any form, by attention in the opposite sex?
I don't know, big or small woman, any term, such as 'fat tub of lard' doesn't seem too attractive, and it just bothers me that someone can say that as a compliment. Didn't your momma teach you manners as a child?
So I guess my ten-dollar buzz thesis for my rant is this: What is the marque of a true FA? Now, I say marque as opposed to mark. Here is the inner car geek in me coming out, but marque is used to describe a brand, and can also be applied to the culture surrounding that brand, Ferrari has a mystique and own culture associated with that marque, something that defines that cultus.
So am I alone here, or just another loud mouthed jackass pissing a lot of people off?
Later
KFD
I have the wonderful gift of swiftly stuffing my foot into my mouth, so I am going to try not to piss anyone off. I look around here, and at the BBW culture, and I see these congruent conditions in a Fat Admirer. Some of these include a disregard for outward appearances, cultural background, possibly social ineptitude, low self esteem, or an Oedipal admiration, some type of foundation early in life that set the course of a young man's journey throughout the entirety of his existence. Maybe its the feeling of security, like a nuturing sensation a small child has with a much larger mother...
Call me arrogant, or whatever you want, but I have never really seen an FA that hasn't satisfied those conditions, except for myself. Well, who would know really about myself more than me, right?
And cue my next point. I was talking to Linda (mostly known in these circles as Destiny) the other day, and she was telling me that she was talking to an FA who told her she was 'Beautiful on the inside'.
REALLY?
You are telling me that you are immersing yourself in the BBW culture, and that is where you find true beauty, on the inside!? Now, don't get things backward- I am in no way saying that the lovely Destiny has this hideous ugly soul, she is sweetheart, but you don't go the butcher shop for seasoning alone!
Now, something else that planted the seed for my rambling. The New Jersey Bash thread. I look at the women dressed up, and man oh man! I am not digging what I am seeing because of anything else other than you girls are beautiful! BigBeautifulMe, is a prime example. I don't mean to dime her out (well, yes I do), but wow. When I see those pictures of her, I see the very essence of femininity! Granted I am not exclusionary, just to her, or to the definition of BBW in general. I love my bikini-clad babes, what straight guy doesn't? I find a girl, like BigBeautifulMe or Juicy Jacqulyn (which in the NJ bash thread made me say WHO IS THAT BEAUTIFUL BABE!?) the very essence of what a female should be.
Something that really piques my interest, is WHY DO I LOVE WHAT I LOVE? Ever since I was a toddler, I have gravitated towards large women in public places. This is where normally one would think that would be Oedipal, but my mother, and all the important female figures in my early life were all tiny. When my grandfather took me to public places, he would count fat girls with me. He wasn't an FA at all whatsoever. I have drawings from when I was younger of fat women. This was LOOOONNNNNNGGGGG before the onslaught of puberty. I have no logical explanation as to why (insert name in what I should have posted in the not-so anonymous thread) is what I perceive to be a strikingly beautiful woman. Again, I see some FAs that have this mindset of 'you are fat, you will do'. I do have qualities I look for, just like the next guy. Please don't bash me here for that quote! One of my best friends is gay. He is respectful of my sexuality, and I am his. He is one of the very few people that I consider 'pure of heart'. One of the most poignant statements that his mother made about him is that 'he is what he is'. Sure, we could sit here all day and postulate why he chooses the same sex, brain chemistry, trauma in his life, but at the end of the day, his mother's eloquently simple quote rings true. I believe it does for me as well.
Now, something else I notice- is one considered an 'fa' because of a lack of options? Go in any BBW chatroom (I have only been in Destiny's so maybe one website isn't an accurate barometer for FA sentiment), I see these idiots, for lack of a better term, say some of the most obtuse, oddball things and otherwise socially unacceptable things. Are these guys FAs because they have had luck with some insecure female who viewed the term bbw as a prejorative, and themselves found some strange asylum in any form, by attention in the opposite sex?
I don't know, big or small woman, any term, such as 'fat tub of lard' doesn't seem too attractive, and it just bothers me that someone can say that as a compliment. Didn't your momma teach you manners as a child?
So I guess my ten-dollar buzz thesis for my rant is this: What is the marque of a true FA? Now, I say marque as opposed to mark. Here is the inner car geek in me coming out, but marque is used to describe a brand, and can also be applied to the culture surrounding that brand, Ferrari has a mystique and own culture associated with that marque, something that defines that cultus.
So am I alone here, or just another loud mouthed jackass pissing a lot of people off?
Later
KFD
