Hiya all
I'm a long, long time lurker here. Never really felt able to say much to anyone about gaining but last night I finally 'fessed up all to my husband.
For as long as I can remember I've had feeding and gaining fantasies, at some points in my life it caused me, and to some extent still causes me, such total anguish that I've had bulimia for most of my teenage and adult years. I'm not a skinny but I've spent lots of years trying to get skinny and stay that way, often managed to get there but never stayed there. Now sort of sitting at a "bit plump".
Last night I ended up getting just telling my hubby everything about why I felt the way I did about food including wanting to put on weight and to be fed and instead of running screaming - which I thought he would since he's always dated thin women before me - he just said "that's a real f*cking turn on and I think you're damn sexy fatter". The sex was fantastic.
Only I thought I'd be happy, and I am happy but it's not really released me from my own feelings of being strange and at odds with the rest of the world because I feel this way and even though my relationship gives me the green light to be what I have always fantasized about being I'm not sure that I can
Excuse one of my first posts being so indepth and serious but I just wondered are there anyone else who feels or has felt this way about gaining?
Seph
<3
I'm a long, long time lurker here. Never really felt able to say much to anyone about gaining but last night I finally 'fessed up all to my husband.
For as long as I can remember I've had feeding and gaining fantasies, at some points in my life it caused me, and to some extent still causes me, such total anguish that I've had bulimia for most of my teenage and adult years. I'm not a skinny but I've spent lots of years trying to get skinny and stay that way, often managed to get there but never stayed there. Now sort of sitting at a "bit plump".
Last night I ended up getting just telling my hubby everything about why I felt the way I did about food including wanting to put on weight and to be fed and instead of running screaming - which I thought he would since he's always dated thin women before me - he just said "that's a real f*cking turn on and I think you're damn sexy fatter". The sex was fantastic.
Only I thought I'd be happy, and I am happy but it's not really released me from my own feelings of being strange and at odds with the rest of the world because I feel this way and even though my relationship gives me the green light to be what I have always fantasized about being I'm not sure that I can
Excuse one of my first posts being so indepth and serious but I just wondered are there anyone else who feels or has felt this way about gaining?
Seph
<3
